I was a straight a kid till 10th

Sophomore for the muricans

Then we had to choose electives

And I 'chose' science

And I sucked at everything in science except biology

Lmaooo

Lol

No wonder I want to die

I'm used to coding now

But I really wish I could actually get into arts and coding be like my income job

Ofc later I found out I actually am not as creative as I thought I was

But yeah, a girl could dream

Mmmmmm

Chocolate

Creativity is something you can practice

I mean, true

I can doodle normally now

Not everyone has a natural born talent

And write a bit

But it's like, I should have got into it earlier

I have a friend who gives painting lessons

But I was too busy being a straight a no nonsense kid

Uh huh

There's plenty of people that do that

Stop beating yourself up

You're 18 not 81

But muh favourite pastime/s

I already feel like 82 oof

But yes

I am on my way to stop beating myself up

I stopped beating myself up on how I look

Now I need to improve mentally

You're smart

But you need to quit throwing yourself pity parties

Guilty as charged

Again, it is a very hard habit

But I'm on it

Think of what's happened in the past as lessons you've learned from

And use them to not make the same mistake

It is just so much easier to make everything your fault and feel sorry for what you are and what you did

Than work on it