Message from @noobypropmaker
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Ohh
I'd love to hear it
@Higura
Fucking hell man, I feel your pain
2017 has been the single worst year in my life, and since then it hasn't noticeably gone downhill further, but hasn't and will not go back uphill ever again
My dad passed away in the early days of 2017 after 3 years of fighting with lung cancer - the operations didn't help, chemo didn't help, radio didn't help, it was as if God has decided that he has fulfilled his purpose in life and isn't required to live anymore
I was also working in a store from December 2015 to January 2017, people think it's just due to my 'tism (that's what I've been telling them so that they wouldn't take it as a sob story I made up just to ruin my boss's public image), though the actual reason I was let go is because I was so devastated by the loss that I couldn't focus on work, "gave off a bad vibe" and detracted customers by constantly losing my attention in the middle of working, and this is bad because it was hard enough to find a job that would accept a non-high-functioning autist, and it's even harder to find a job that also pays well
Then, the apartment I inherited from my dad burned down in March due to shitty wiring, along with a lot of my personal belongings, documents and the money I was saving since university to buy a new apartment or maybe even a house in Tomsk
I got a new one-story wooden house with the help of one of my friends, but I still haven't entirely made it good, as in, there's no running water, the only well on my property fucked over in 2018 and I take the water from my neighbors, who live about 100 meters away from my current house
The things I listed above are the reasons I'm drinking, as alcohol helps me to pay less attention to all the shit that happened in the past (well, most of the times, when I do remember that shit while drunk, I'll most likely be depressed for several days even after I sober up completely)
The way I get money is through disability benefits and small jobs like shoveling snow, chopping and stacking firewood and painting fences/houses, and even then most of it goes out to pay for the necessities such as electricity bills, food and water, and the rest I spend on alcohol
My situation is a complete dead end, and the only thing I can hope for is that it won't get worse
Sorry for the wall of text, the situation @Higura is in reminded me of my own story
Shit dude
Am cleaning the house atm
Gimme like 15
Okay
That's a definitely shitty story, my dude. I feel ya there. I would've been out on the street had these fucks from /vg/ not let me come and live with them. Which I do actually have to move out in a few months due to some bullshit about them wanting a baby but w/e.
Like I can completely understand why you drink as a result of everything that has happened, and everything that is currently happening. I wish I could say I knew of a perfect solution for such a problem, and be able to help you with it, but I don't know. I'm still struggling how to deal with my own shit. I was at least able to identify my problem as it worsened and was at least able to come back from a complete meltdown or OD or something worse.
But yeah, I don't mind the stories and shit. No need to apologize. I think it's important to recognize your faults and try to improve them, and I do hope that there is something that can be done to help you.
@Tersheus I'll write up one of my own paranormal tales down in <#462005526021013505> or <#462002490712260658>
@Higura
Thanks for your kind words, I hope you'll deal with your problems as soon as possible
And the only thing I think would help me is if the economy of my shitty village was miraculously fixed, I could find a job and get the money needed to either finish improving my house or move
Regardless, good luck with whatever you're doing
How much money would you need to get your water working, do you think?
About 70-80k roubles (which is roughly 9 times the amount I earn every month, not counting the bills and the food I have to pay for, kek), that's the cheapest price the company that conducts water to houses like mine offers, plus if I have to count the total price of installing the sinks, the drains, the shower and the indoors toilet, the total price rises to 150-200k, which is astronomically high compared to the amount of money that's left over unspent every month
<:oof:485621204925939722>
That's not a great situation to be in. How does it compare to your ability to move to a bigger city, budget wise?
Yeeee boi I feel kinda great today. Manage to get 10 hours of sleep. Which is kind of a lot, but when I've been averaging 3-4 it's nice.
Only took 300mg compared to the 400 from the previous day. No hallucinations this time. It's a small step, but it does make me feel a lot better.
keep it up
slow and steady boi
whats good fam
Sorry
Accidental
Lel
That's finwe
>goes to do a night drive out of sheer boredom and not feel alon
>go to target
>don't expect to see much
>see a whole bunch of couples there
>mfw
feelsbadman
Aww thanks Mr. Spiderman!
<:DOUBT:465443258424623106>
Is this your cat? She is beautiful!
Yep! Sheβs chubby but sheβs a very sweet cat
friend is in debt like no tomorrow rn, if you could donate it would help
@Higura
Even the shittiest single-room apartments in Tomsk (the nearest large city) cost over a million roubles, which is an amount of money that I have never earned before, and probably will not earn in the foreseeable future
@KhromosomeKing do you know station.exe?
@Deleted User
What?