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Mfw I'm called old man

My coworkers call me Grandpa

And are getting me fathers day gifts

Oof

awwww

Free shit @Higura

Take advantage of this

Yes

Noice, why do they call you grandpa

Because I act like a grumpy old man, apparently

Ohh

Okay grandpa

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I didn’t peg you as being an older dude so I was just wondering

I'm 28 irl

... 29 in a few months

From the comments from the vid country sent

Kek

Ye. I'm an oldfag too. 32. Time is a fucking horrifying thing. Has a sort of vertigo to it. Like standing on top of this mountain of past expierience. The longer you're around the more it seems to speed up. Pulling you ever closer to the great black abyss.

Wish I was in bio-med tbh.

I know that feel. It's hard to believe it's been so long since leaving high school. Time just passes me by, and I wonder where it all went.

Do y'all ever have that feeling where you know you're a talanted professional and have mastered many things and have overall experienced alot in life, yet you still feel like a scared and confused child?

Like I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough and how the fuck did I get in this truck?

Go to college

That's probably a common problem a lot of people face. Well, at least self-aware people. There is only so much information we can retain, and we will never know everything there is to know. I feel that it's probably a reminder of the limitation of our mortality. I'm not particularly skilled at a great deal of things, and while it sucks that there are things I will never understand or get to experience; I am at least thankful for the experiences I have had.

It's kind of a common question when possible time travel discussions come up:
"If you could go back in time and fix things that you fucked up, which events would you change?"

Hardship is unfortunately part of life, and shitty things do happen.
I always answered "I wouldn't change anything."

Everything an individual faces is responsible for who we are today, and why things may not always seem ideal, it's not something we have to endure alone. There is absolutely nothing wrong with admitting that we suffer, and sure, there are always people worse off. This doesn't invalidate our own hardships. Self-doubt affects me as well, getting some of the highest work commendations and being endlessly praised for my innovation to troubleshoot issues; and despite that... I never feel like the things I do are the best I can do.

I routinely feel that everything I do is pointless and a waste of time, and that I'm just making excuses for myself to ward myself away from suicidal tendencies. "Oh, grandpa would be disappointed if I threw away his legacy.", "If people at work rely on me, I have a purpose.",

I can't say I know you particularly well, Doggo; but you're a good guy from what I've seen. Depression and existentialism are a part of the world now, moreso than ever before. Tackling your demons is never easy, but don't give up dude. You're our nigger, nigger. You matter to us.

Actually don’t go to college

Thanks dude @Higura

I'm just stressed by being in this truck so long, I just wanna go home for a while

I'm going home the 14, feels so close yet so far

I'm halfway across the country and still have a few more jobs to run

You'll get there. Get home and get some much needed rest. We'll be here every step of the way.

https://youtu.be/PaZ1EmPOE_k

This one was a good watch. With the way the world is, it's easier than ever to despair. I am one bleak fuck, and I probably downed an entire bottle of blackpills by now. Then I have brief moments of enlightenment, reasons to keep going, reasons that give hope. Even if it's a momentary fleeting feeling. It's something, I guess.

The best thing to do during times of self doubt and reflection is realise that despite your current situation, you're most likley doing better than the people who have either hurted you, betrayed you, who you hate, or just realising that your mostlikley doing better than most people in general. This can honestly help give you a boost in confidence and can give you hope in the long run. The story i posted yesterday is a good example of that. Try to look at the positives whenever you can as that can help keep you from falling into the void

^but legit, that's a good way to think about things as you move forward in life

@country doggo I know that feel. I also drive. What I want though is a laboratory/workshop. Just tinker away all day. I do what I do for a living because I can just blank out during it. I want more fulfilling and meaningful work, but getting paid $25/hr to do something which a coma patient could nearly accomplish makes it too easy to stay.

If I want better than that I'm looking at years of 'paying my dues' somewhere playing bitch boy and sucking ass for promotions.

Every fucking year though I spend time looking for something else.

But none of what I can get pays even close to that for my time.