Message from My Name Is Hate in tradworker #tradworker


2017-05-19 17:11:48 UTC  

*Jail

2017-05-19 17:12:28 UTC  

I've said it before, but like stabbing people for 20 euros, whoring for 15e, that shows exactly how much they value themselves. But when you're trying to get a few bucks to get just a bit of a buprenorphine pill, hey, it doesn't sound crazy at all at the moment, almost normal

2017-05-19 17:12:55 UTC  

That's actually it, how drugs turn your everyday life into something unimaginably chaotic.

2017-05-19 17:13:33 UTC  

@Kombat-Unit yes. What's really crazy is that I kept going back, after everything it had taken or that I had given it, I still went back bc I had failed to answer the most basic part of the problem, my spiritual base, what is objectively true & right? I kept finding total shit around me in this world full of plague

2017-05-19 17:13:35 UTC  

Yeah, opi WDs, just kill me fam

2017-05-19 17:13:52 UTC  

at first you're afraid you'll die, then you're afraid you won't¨

2017-05-19 17:14:07 UTC  

Perfectly stated.

2017-05-19 17:14:21 UTC  

Wishing to die bc death would be easier

2017-05-19 17:14:31 UTC  

I'd wish that on the jews but no one else I could immediately think of

2017-05-19 17:15:05 UTC  

@Skirnir42 not something I recommend doing with your time

2017-05-19 17:15:13 UTC  

You guys should definitely workshop helping out addicts

2017-05-19 17:15:21 UTC  

And same, even after I had gotten rid of the most immediate WDs and didn't use hard drugs daily anymore, I still kept sort of bouncing between druggies and nationalists

2017-05-19 17:15:31 UTC  

baby steps lol

2017-05-19 17:15:32 UTC  

@My Name Is Hate Learned from the sins of the father XD

2017-05-19 17:15:33 UTC  

The Jews are DEEP in the drug trade

2017-05-19 17:16:13 UTC  

I have to say I met a ton of gypsies, even a nog, but never a jew. We have like 2k of them, I don't think like single one earns less than 30k a year.

2017-05-19 17:16:21 UTC  

On international level, sure

2017-05-19 17:16:34 UTC  

good ole WLP spoke about it too

2017-05-19 17:17:29 UTC  

There I have been lucky. By nature I'm very black & white, so once I had made the "big discovery" that was it, I severed every connection I had, I was like gasoline & a torch looking for old bridges to burn

2017-05-19 17:18:02 UTC  

The flip side is that now I have a very solitary life

2017-05-19 17:18:21 UTC  

Lots of experience, no real outlet

2017-05-19 17:18:59 UTC  

Yes when I say Jews in drugs I mean high level

2017-05-19 17:19:19 UTC  

Yeah, I did know several druggie crews, some were just totally insane, you know? Every day they shoot up the amount you do in a week, constant police raids, fights, shootings, extortion, whatever. Those I cut pretty effectively early. But then there were more palatable ones and some whores. But the time between lapses grew.

2017-05-19 17:19:41 UTC  

Like from "wow, I've been entire week sober, amazing, time to PAR-TY" to being a month without any major problem.

2017-05-19 17:19:59 UTC  

That was me. I was the lunatic

2017-05-19 17:20:19 UTC  

Hard for me to really believe now

2017-05-19 17:20:48 UTC  

Yeah, as I mentioned, there was just attempted quintuple killing in which two guys from the crew got caught up in. Never a dull moment. You might wanna die, but you'll never be bored.

2017-05-19 17:21:03 UTC  

Except when you're waiting for a deal to go down

2017-05-19 17:21:45 UTC  

Ha, true. It does serve as a good training ground, it makes some of this political activism seem very mundane

2017-05-19 17:21:59 UTC  

Sounds like some neighbors of mine. Have the law over there at least a couple times a week, shit is ridiculous.

2017-05-19 17:22:01 UTC  

lol yeah, got that right

2017-05-19 17:22:47 UTC  

Oh we are going to get together & talk & stay sober & Make ppl angry, wake me up if you need me

2017-05-19 17:23:02 UTC  

I'm a pretty stupid cunt, I don't know how the first times you dealt with drug business went down, but mine involved three cars getting stolen, some guy getting his face kicked apart and cops. You'd think I'd have learned, but nope

2017-05-19 17:23:35 UTC  

I bypassed that lmaoweed phase completely

2017-05-19 17:23:42 UTC  

thank God

2017-05-19 17:25:21 UTC  

We could spend days going over the idiocy of our street careers I'm sure. I started really early 12/13 Juvenile life sentence didn't slow me up, federal prison didn't slow me up, I'm basically a fucking retard. Freely admit that, funny thing is the retard tends to only come out once mind altering substances are introduced, once that happens all bets are off

2017-05-19 17:25:36 UTC  

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2017-05-19 17:27:43 UTC  

I've actually got a lot to atone for

2017-05-19 17:28:19 UTC  

Yeah...I'd say I'm pretty civil and mild mannered guy sober, maybe, but a nice speedball that doesn't knock you out cold gives such an ego boost you could start DOTR right that instant

2017-05-19 17:28:36 UTC  

And you behave accordingly.

2017-05-19 17:29:07 UTC  

The choir you are preaching too agrees. It's a special kind of insanity.