I don't mean to sound presumptuous, but I can see where you are coming from with the whole "PTSD but enjoyed it" think.

yeah

part of the ptsd is why i want to go back so bad

when i went last year to fight with the Kurds i was so happy, like happier than id ever been in years

but now that im back i just dont know what to do

dont feel bad about being "presumtions" or prying, im happy to answer anything, im an open book

just kind of in a bad place tonight, and talking helps

What's warfare like?

Crazy, confusing, loud, but at the same time all your senses are 200%

Did you ever kill someone?

give me sec

yeah a couple

not giving out a number

How does it feel?

jej

What would you say the US K/D ratio was? Do our forces take out more terrorists than they lose?

pretty fucking good, not like OMG i illed someone, but like FUCK YEAH I DID MY JOB AND IM STILL ALIVE

Do you think that's common?

i saw a lot of that

especially in the Marines, were trained to want that kill

and it feels good

Interesting.

Where do you think the PTSD comes from? Closeness to death? Actions?

closeness to death, anxiety about whats gonna happen, hyper alertness, being shot, just a lot

but thats me

been in a few IEDs, and fought in the biggest battle s of 2004 there

Is there any lessons you think should be shared?

Sounds stressful as fuck.

yeah, keep your eyes open, have a plan before you move, know where your friends are, and dont just shoot a fucker once, double tap him and put two more in his head

it is

and ALWAYS maintain your physical fitness

You said you fought with the Kurds? what are they like?

I hear they're pretty cool, except for some socialist traits.

I've heard conflicting reports about them

Theyre pretty bro tier, just need guidance

they are not afraid to go ham

Need guidance?

leadership

and skills