Message from @Bodark Actual

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What's up man?

2019-09-10 17:48:41 UTC  

So I am an adrenaline junkie, I used to do a lot of bullshit nonsense and real dangerous actions to make myself feel super alive for a bit

Now I work from.home and have a business and shit so I don't have time to do that

But it's super stressful, which wouldn't be an issue except for how I cope with it

I don't do drugs or get drunk a lot or anything, I don't step out on my wife or nothing

But when I feel really stressed and need that dopamine magic I turn to porn and it's not good

2019-09-10 17:49:30 UTC  

Last night I had sex with my wife and like, I just couldn't finish and that's never happened before and I'm 99999% because I watch way too much of the shit

tbh, porn us one of the worst things imo. it's bad for the sex life, even worse for the psyche of a man. It takes a toll bro Trust me

As dor the adrenaline junkie thing, mad respect

2019-09-10 17:51:38 UTC  

I am experiencing this. Totally feel it

2019-09-10 17:52:35 UTC  

Short is right, its no good. But I doubt most of us could part with it. I'd suggest finding a balance, maybe talking with your wife about it? Idk, I'm pretty open with my girlfriend and we watch it together sometimes.

2019-09-10 17:53:17 UTC  

She watches it too so it's not an issue but I'm at like 3x a day ish like 10minutes at a time if I start getting bored or anxious

2019-09-10 17:54:07 UTC  

Ok, so maybe find a positive habbit to replace it. Like pushups or putting in work on a heavy bag

Exercise helps like a motherfucker, good shit to get that burn

I'm a Fatboy, but I'm doing good at working through it

Already lost 152lbs these past few

I used to be skinny and athletic, but for some reason I became a slob in high school, and a bit after. now I been busting ass to get my shit.

2019-09-10 17:56:44 UTC  

Replacement is what needs to happen

2019-09-10 17:57:01 UTC  

I need something to replace my dopamine needs

that's a tough one bro.

2019-09-10 17:59:28 UTC  

I know your pain bro. Yes the failure to eject was because if the ferocity of meat beating

2019-09-10 17:59:44 UTC  

1 we are at war. Stop letting the low hanging fruit of the enemy tempt you.

2019-09-10 18:00:01 UTC  

Knowing that place the time and energy elsewhere

2019-09-10 18:00:20 UTC  

Absolutely

2019-09-10 18:15:52 UTC  

I never have this issue I watched alot of porn when I was stationed away from my woman, but beating my meat is nothing compared to beating up the wife's meat

2019-09-10 18:24:26 UTC  

Wife has PCOS so sex isn't at regular intervals, unfortunately

2019-09-10 18:24:57 UTC  

So it's hard to avoid porn when I gotta wait 2 weeks at a time cuz she's really sore from ovaries n shit

2019-09-10 18:33:32 UTC  

Not trying to make excuses tho

2019-09-10 19:21:34 UTC  

I mean that's understandable

2019-09-10 19:45:41 UTC  

Man yesterday was shit. Showed up to the range 400 left at 2100

2019-09-11 16:24:25 UTC  

One of the many reasons I got out

2019-09-11 18:27:35 UTC  

Listen chief smoke some dank whenever you want to jerk off. It certainly ain’t a bad habit and it’ll help ur dopamine needs and give you some other minor health benefits but idk where you live so idk if you can

2019-09-11 20:28:14 UTC  

I freaked out

2019-09-11 20:28:25 UTC  

Jesus boy.

2019-09-11 20:28:37 UTC  

My brother taunted me for no fucking reason

2019-09-11 20:28:46 UTC  

And Im tired of this

2019-09-11 20:28:55 UTC  

Drink a big glass of milk pray mahbe even beat off before u do it so you can go into it with post nut clarity

2019-09-11 20:29:08 UTC  

Just dont give up

2019-09-11 20:29:09 UTC  

I never screamed so angrily and so loud in my entire life

2019-09-11 20:29:28 UTC  

He got scared and walked away

2019-09-11 20:29:32 UTC  

What happened to you son

2019-09-11 20:30:30 UTC  

I placed a bottle of alcohol in a table near his contact lenses

2019-09-11 20:30:35 UTC  

Was cleaning some shit

2019-09-11 20:31:05 UTC  

He saw that and taunted me saying to get that shit away from his contact lenses, like it was my intention