About ten years of my life, I've asked and pleaded,

through the bible

on my knees,

begging God

to just show me, something,

anything,

to let me know that he was there.

And either I'm blind or he doesn't want me to.

I'm banking on the former, but the latter isn't ruled out of question.

I've recently been asking him what he wants me to do.

I'd do anything

and I mean it

I mean it,

*anything*

to know what he wants me to do.

My mind has become almost numb.

My apathy

is essentially overwhelming me, ironically.

More than anything, I'm just tired.

Mostly tired of the deafening silence that I feel whenever I try to pray.

The complete lack of presence.

I know He's there,

dammit I know.

But I can't hear him,

and I can't see him.

And now I can't even feel him.

I want to make a nation for him, I want to serve him in any way shape or form that he desires me to, I'll go to the ends of the earth, and I will surrender my life *if He'll just. Let. Me. Know.*

But I hear nothing

I see nothing

I feel nothing.

I am, for lack of a better word, dead.

Or at least vegetative.

I'd ask for prayers but I don't know that they'd work anymore.

I think that this is my lot.

That God has made me this way. So that I will do something because of this complete and utter silence.

That's all, fellas.

If christ came and told men they must follow a new way, him, but hating gays is old testament what biblical justification for no homosexuality is in the new testament?

Im against degeneracy but many people use this logic and id like to be able to defend myself in a debate

@Deleted User your interpretation of scripture is terrible

@Deleted User fuc u, idk these things thats why im trying go get information