perhaps thats always been my main drive to just go to the woods and live alone

My bp is thru the roof. It sits high normally but it's bad bad

that basically describes what I have been feeling since 2018.. Ive gone to urgen care one time.. but they said everything is fine... just an anxiety attack.... I'm thinking its just because of me dealing with all of this stupidity.. I mentally am fed up with corruption..all the immorality going on in this world...

and it only happens when Im around people.. when Im by myself it is alot better

I drank a 5th of whiskey in the last 2 hrs trying to get the initial drop and put myself to sleep but it's not working. I just took 3 advil pms and some melatonin hoping to crash. But idk

gotcha...

that sucks though

wanting to sleep and can't isn't fun

Yes ... alone ... I do much better.its when I try to reason my thoughts with others I start overloading

same here.. its as though trying to speak reason to someone who's too far gone.. zombie mode

and it frustrates me that people are soo stupid these days

they don't see what is right in front of them

I am pretty sure I'm going to have a stroke or something. I keep having to sigh and cry to even bring the frustration down. Even when I'm not sure for which particular thing it is that is eating me alive

Its so overwhelming. I cant get a grip as it is and then this election... its sending me over the top.

to this day Im still trying to figure out what triggers my anxiety attacks..etc but I think its basically the general state of this world, how I deal with it is by going to the park everyday/ exercising really helps to lower cortisol levels...

all my friends tell me don't worry about 5G don't worry about so and so... not worrying about things like that is the very reason why we as a society are in this mess. action needs to be taken

Took up gold panning... that's been my outlet . Playing with rock listening to the river. Breathing. ... idk it's still alot tho

nice, I wish I can go to a river and breathe the fresh air

I guess the missouri river is kinda close... but it's polluted..lol

Here another person who was absolutely pissed at what happened. Trying to get her to come and talk with us on my channel. I had chills the entire video

https://youtu.be/WpeZNGwYpDU

lol I remember posting a video about her one time, because she was thrown off the bus for refusing to wear a mask..very nice

Awesome. She is from Colorado I guess. I'd like to meet with her.

that would be great, your stream, you doing that everyday now?

Oh shit sasha did u see the google patents? I mean to send it 2 u

ill have to make sure to have my computer up and running so I can join in

I don't think so

Not everyday. I just kinda want to do it when I feel the need to get something out. Em and pat do it every night and I join theirs

sounds good

what are these patents all about

Hold on

https://patents.google.com/patent/US5330414A/en

https://patents.google.com/patent/US6081744A/en

https://patents.google.com/patent/US5954629A/en

thanks, ive saves all as pdf.

I've got a vid I am trying 2 copy the link but it's being weird

try clipconverter.cc I use that website to convert most of my videos

shes so right when she said: " this is it, this is our last chance"

it seems like we are throwing it away though, hopefully not..

https://m.facebook.com/groups/1386679344849748/permalink/1504993756351639/

mark steele..my buddy