Message from @Killgore

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2020-05-13 04:53:37 UTC  

We will be the ones to usher in a new age of America, but saddly, I doubt many of, if any, of us will get to see it. How do you guys feel knowing you'll likely not get to experience the freedoms you fought so dearly for?

2020-05-13 05:27:22 UTC  

So be it, an ideal for all of us is worth far more than my own life.

2020-05-13 07:54:05 UTC  

It's something i think about almost every day..it's not so much a matter of "will" i die as it is a "how long will i be able to last" kinda thing..anyone truly planing on making a real stand has almost no hope in living to see the end result...my only fear is all of dying in vain..

2020-05-13 15:18:29 UTC  

@Cannibalistic69th so long as I'm assured my children can, I'm happy and ready to lay my life down for Liberty for them and others. Until I have that assurance, or until forced kicking and screaming off this more to coil, my fight hasn't even entered the dangerous phase

2020-05-14 03:38:46 UTC  

Is it bad that I quit caring about someone who constantly talks about wanting to kill themselves? I quit caring because they don’t seem to want a way out. They’re wallowing in their sadness and it’s fucking aggravating.

2020-05-14 03:38:54 UTC  

I wouldn’t care if they did it at this point.

2020-05-14 03:39:01 UTC  

Does that make me fucked up?

2020-05-14 03:39:35 UTC  

@[LA] Zoomer Medi/k/ depends on why. Ik my depression meds fucked me up worse than just being normally depressed

2020-05-14 03:39:58 UTC  

But I can see if it didnt come in waves and was more of a constant thing itd tire someone out

2020-05-14 03:40:15 UTC  

We can’t have a normal conversation.

2020-05-14 03:40:28 UTC  

I try to help her but it’s hard to help someone when they don’t seem to want it.

2020-05-14 03:40:34 UTC  

“Suicide is the only way out”

2020-05-14 03:40:43 UTC  

I can’t catch a fucking break.

2020-05-14 03:41:06 UTC  

One of her friends got on my ass because I didn’t text her for two days because I was finishing up some school work.

2020-05-14 03:41:18 UTC  

Well I'd just suggest professional help and that's all you can do

2020-05-14 03:41:22 UTC  

I’ve tried

2020-05-14 03:41:27 UTC  

She just says “it won’t help”

2020-05-14 03:41:34 UTC  

Cant expect to fix someone that clearly doesn't wanna be fixed.

2020-05-14 03:41:36 UTC  

I don’t think she wants a way out I swear

2020-05-14 03:42:00 UTC  

And her friend says I don’t care and got pissed because I told her she needed help.

2020-05-14 03:42:19 UTC  

I mean ... like I said it depends on how it ebbs and flows and shit. I know I can be in a deep slump for 5-6 days and come out of it for 2-3 months

2020-05-14 03:42:35 UTC  

For context: a girl got obsessed with me just because we talked a lot, and I wanted out of that “contract”

2020-05-14 03:42:46 UTC  

She was already depressed and I tried to help

2020-05-14 03:42:55 UTC  

She clung on to me

2020-05-14 03:42:59 UTC  

Because I tried to help

2020-05-14 03:43:02 UTC  

Because I cared

2020-05-14 03:43:08 UTC  

Tbh that sounds more borderline manipulation

2020-05-14 03:43:16 UTC  

I don’t even know

2020-05-14 03:43:30 UTC  

like she’d get real sad if I told her I wouldn’t text her for a while because I was doing something

2020-05-14 03:43:50 UTC  

It’s extremely fucked for me to say, as her friend told me, but she is fucked in the head.

2020-05-14 03:44:15 UTC  

Any professional is going to tell you that someone cant be your sole happiness and you've gotta find something else to do.

Even if it's just lie in bed and hide for a bit

2020-05-14 03:45:53 UTC  

Her friend is pissed and says that I should just quit since I can’t seem to help

2020-05-14 03:52:01 UTC  

Tell her to get whiskey drunk and listen to 70s country western?

2020-05-14 03:53:43 UTC  

That’s my coping mechanism

2020-05-14 03:55:26 UTC  

“I don’t choose to be this way”

2020-05-14 04:00:10 UTC  

That's what I do, I figure it's good as anything

2020-05-14 04:19:53 UTC  

Sure is

2020-05-14 11:50:05 UTC  

Sounds like she grew dependant and thats bad and its not wrong for you to feel exhausted by having to try and help the most you can do is listen and suggest help whatever medium they decide to use is up to them

2020-05-15 00:00:22 UTC  

@[LA] Zoomer Medi/k/ might I suggest sleeping with her sister?

2020-05-15 00:09:50 UTC  

@[LA] Zoomer Medi/k/ I have a cousin that’s the same way. He did some dumb shit and was an absolute shitbag to his ex who wants absolutely nothing to do with him and he’s obsessed with her, like creepy stalker obsessed. And he says all the time he wants to kill himself, and I talked to him when no one else would and he told me everything, and as much as I tried to help him, he never helped himself and just kept making himself depressed about it by looking at the 1500+ pictures of her on his phone. When someone constantly talks about it, it’s done for attention and nothing else.

2020-05-15 00:10:28 UTC  

It’s aggravating as shit