GROWTH IS A LENGTHY PROCESS

WITH MUCH NUANCE AND DEPTH

I'm better at socializing now

@spaceplacenta how do you reconcile party animal past with intj

I'm a convergent morphogenesis

Opposing forces

And self destructive

SO ARE ALL THINGS

IN LOVE WITH THEIR OWN DESTRUCTION

IN ORDER TO EMBRACE THEIR EXISTENCE

@spaceplacenta I BELIEVE THAT

ABOUT THE SOCIALIZING

IT SEEMS EVIDENT FROM YOUR HANDLING OF PEOPLE IN CHAT

The first time we chilled I was a talkative dood

But it wore me out

IT TAKES TIME TO FIND YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO AUDIENCE

I'm talking about rl

SOME ARE HARDER OR EASIER TO TALK TO

YES, OF COURSE, BUT SIMILAR THOUGHT PROCESS EMPLOYED

Volunteer work has helped a great deal

can you chill with tandy

I have in the past

without trolling him

Probably not

HERE I AM SUPPOSED TO SAY

There's always a part of me that wants to antagonize him

"BURY THE HATCHET"

BUT I DO NOT BELIEVE

PEOPLE GO DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS

THIS IS JUST HOW IT IS

I'm a type 8 INTJ

Grudges don't go away

NOW YOU RAISE A GOOD QUESTION

A REALLY GOOD ONE

I AM LEARNING TO RELEASE GRUDGES

BECAUSE ULTIMATELY

THERE IS SO MUCH TO GAIN

ELSEWHERE

BUT THAT IS FOR ME

AND I HAVE MORE HATRED IN MY DARK SOUL

THAN MOST.