Message from @Deleted User 57835c2c

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2017-04-13 19:40:41 UTC  

it is somewhat heartening, but I can't make out the twists and turns in your mind

2017-04-13 19:40:47 UTC  

that led to you crying for a patient on a ward

2017-04-13 19:41:31 UTC  

my instinct is to say it touched your true self, which is childish and hence vulnerable

2017-04-13 19:41:37 UTC  

so you teared up

2017-04-13 19:41:48 UTC  

but I don't know.

2017-04-13 19:42:07 UTC  

that is about right

2017-04-13 19:42:41 UTC  

I think if you were fully mature in yourself, you wouldn't cry either

2017-04-13 19:42:49 UTC  

this child stuff

2017-04-13 19:42:52 UTC  

it can sound like an insult

2017-04-13 19:42:54 UTC  

really, it's not

2017-04-13 19:42:57 UTC  

I hope you understand

2017-04-13 19:43:01 UTC  

it's just what it is

2017-04-13 19:43:06 UTC  

you're not actually a child

2017-04-13 19:43:38 UTC  

for traumatic reasons (likely) your development in a cognitive (I think spiritual) domain has been arrested or curtailed

2017-04-13 19:43:57 UTC  

it's not your fault, but then it is too

2017-04-13 19:43:59 UTC  

because you do have a choice

2017-04-13 19:44:20 UTC  

I need to go do some shopping, be back later

2017-04-13 19:44:40 UTC  

oh one question

2017-04-13 19:44:45 UTC  

how did it feel to cry in that situation

2017-04-13 19:44:56 UTC  

good? bad? confusing? uncontrollable? cathartic?

2017-04-13 19:45:24 UTC  

the best I can say is it felt right and appropriate

2017-04-13 19:45:36 UTC  

like something I feel like I should normally do much more often but I refuse to because most humans are such garbage

2017-04-13 19:52:15 UTC  

so instead when something bad happens to them I force myself to think "good, they deserved it, haha dalits are dead"

2017-04-13 19:58:22 UTC  

IN HONOR OF THE 152nd ANNIVERSARY OF ABRAHAM LINCOLN'S ASSASSINATION TOMORROW I PRESENT

2017-04-13 19:58:37 UTC  

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/267086373285134338/302170736829792256/TheadventuresofLeHappyMerchant_667.jpg

2017-04-13 19:58:42 UTC  

THE ADVENTURNES OF LE HAPPY MERCHANT

2017-04-13 20:06:45 UTC  

this is interesting

2017-04-13 20:07:05 UTC  

specifically that russia's IQ is 97

2017-04-13 20:07:15 UTC  

I have seen many estimates of russian IQ and they are never far below the average for other white countries

2017-04-13 20:07:39 UTC  

the data is in line with my theory of russians as a morally, culturally and spiritually broken people rather than genetic garbage

2017-04-13 20:08:45 UTC  

"I don't think I've shed a tear for a human being in my life"

Wow really?

2017-04-13 20:20:10 UTC  

our military folks

2017-04-13 20:23:55 UTC  

this is fun

2017-04-13 20:24:33 UTC  

I found out that my wall-facing handstand push ups, which are basically full range, have me using 95% body weight and my decline push ups are using 80% of it

2017-04-13 20:24:43 UTC  

so doing those for high volume does not really leave much to be desired for pushing strength

2017-04-13 20:25:32 UTC  

the new handstand push ups are so difficult I can only do like 5

2017-04-13 20:25:45 UTC  

I think I will train them in a 20x1 fashion next week instead of even trying to do sets

2017-04-13 20:39:22 UTC  
2017-04-13 20:39:30 UTC  

not even as a boy