Message from @fallot
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I decide first that I don't like them, then I stop viewing them as a person
yeah
I actually feel quite strongly and regularly do things like crying for patients on wards
sounds about right
I don't think I've shed a tear for a human being in my life
and yet I am the crazy narcissist
you're not crazy but yes
that's why I said it
I'm not a normal person, but I don't have a personality disorder
so you cannot simply use such stuff as evidence that you are okay or relatively okay
it is somewhat heartening, but I can't make out the twists and turns in your mind
that led to you crying for a patient on a ward
my instinct is to say it touched your true self, which is childish and hence vulnerable
so you teared up
but I don't know.
that is about right
I think if you were fully mature in yourself, you wouldn't cry either
this child stuff
it can sound like an insult
really, it's not
it's just what it is
you're not actually a child
for traumatic reasons (likely) your development in a cognitive (I think spiritual) domain has been arrested or curtailed
it's not your fault, but then it is too
because you do have a choice
I need to go do some shopping, be back later
oh one question
how did it feel to cry in that situation
good? bad? confusing? uncontrollable? cathartic?
the best I can say is it felt right and appropriate
like something I feel like I should normally do much more often but I refuse to because most humans are such garbage
so instead when something bad happens to them I force myself to think "good, they deserved it, haha dalits are dead"
IN HONOR OF THE 152nd ANNIVERSARY OF ABRAHAM LINCOLN'S ASSASSINATION TOMORROW I PRESENT
THE ADVENTURNES OF LE HAPPY MERCHANT
this is interesting
specifically that russia's IQ is 97
I have seen many estimates of russian IQ and they are never far below the average for other white countries
the data is in line with my theory of russians as a morally, culturally and spiritually broken people rather than genetic garbage