Message from @devolved
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I think you can do it @Deleted User 57835c2c there are people way worse off than you
I am not certain why what I keep locked up inside needs to change if I can deal with my life as is
then there is no helping you
epsecially since I basically see myself as using revolting tactics as a way to deal with revolting people/situations
I am rewarding like with like
when you make that decision that no, this isn't okay
then there can be some progress down the path I have vaguely lain out
it's your choice
stop thinking about other people
think about yourself
that habit may not be easy to kill
instead of thinking about other people and talking about yourself
do the opposite
if you do choose the double down route, don't think you'll just stay as you are now
you'll get worse
of course "worse" may be a more successful person, who may even be well liked
that's the real choice here, true self vs. false self
Joe was very successful in business. He bragged that his narcissism allowed him to be tough-minded and make the right decisions even when it might be unpopular with his colleagues. He brought the same tough-minded approach to being a husband and father.
this is you
Avoid the Four Horsemen – Learn how to stop Criticism, Defensiveness, Contempt, and Stonewalling.
you've got all 4 in big helpings
yes
the narcissist is stunted in that he doesn't have a clear emotional sense of the other person
like a kid
you can't blame a kid for doing some rude shit or whatever
they don't understand
anyone I behave narcissistically towards, I do not want to empathize with
this is rationalization, that should not be a choice
I decide first that I don't like them, then I stop viewing them as a person
yeah
I actually feel quite strongly and regularly do things like crying for patients on wards
sounds about right
I don't think I've shed a tear for a human being in my life
and yet I am the crazy narcissist
you're not crazy but yes
that's why I said it
I'm not a normal person, but I don't have a personality disorder
so you cannot simply use such stuff as evidence that you are okay or relatively okay