@wendiko not the plate itself

Where to buy it though... there's not exactly a lot of military surplus stores where i live.

Ebay... ive always had a weird bias against ebay... like the craigslist of amazon.

Illinois. Chicago land

Yeah. Like a kit that wont break the bank.

Ive got some pouches already, mostly looking for the vest in particular. I can make do with dress shirts from the goodwill and i already have khaki pants for work

Ive got plenty of workboots too

Looking for suggestions and recommendations on brands and types

What do you guys think of this one?

Why do you guys care? Why should you care? Who asked you to? Why doa bunch of strangers show more support than everyone around me? Why do I feel better telling you all about how pathetic I am, rather than just saying "i feel sad" to my parents. Im close with my mother, and ok with dad.
Ive fallen too far into the "men aren't supposed to feel anything" hole haven't i?

No

If i was good would i be here?

You dont have to. You dont need to.

Why? Why would you want to help me?

Feeling worthless. Like a piss poor excuse for a man. Im always working,i have no hobbies, no time to find love which at this point feels like a waste of time in of itself. Work is only getting busier with Halloween coming up, my works busiest season.

Among other things.

I feel stressed all the time and im wanting to move out of Illinois before this time next year and everything is eating away at me.

Hope is the first step towards disappointment

Why? Why does everyone say they need eachother? I could die tomorrow and nothing would change in your life.

Look at this. Im making a mess of things and wasting your time...

Suicide is not the answer i know that, im just fighting a war of attrition against the demon within thats telling me im worthless.

I sometimes get these moods right before falling asleep and my mind runs wild and the "voice" (i aint a scitzo) just repeats a lot of things in my head.

I guess im just conditioned to being "the strong one that everyone else goes to" to the point that I dont have anyone to talk to when i need help because ill look weak.

Im a giant, and a supportive one. Im the oldest of 5 and am the 2nd oldest associate in my store. I have to be strong and hide the pain and stress. And when im most alone it all flushes out. I dont cry though. I wont allow myself to do that.

Thats the thing too. I dont have any friends. They either legitimately died or moved away...

Illinois. Central i guess. Its 0135

Retail.

Neither really.

Party city.

No, we dont...

Everything from the helium shortage to not having our sections set up yet.

Thats the big kicker is the helium shortage

Helium is a non renewable natural gas that is used in a lot of medical and industrial uses that get prioritized over our stores and general public usage to the point that we run out on a weekly basis. Ive had things thrown at me, ive been taunted. A lot of shit in the past year

I don't know which of any of those, but i aint alphabettyboi

Here and there its not a big deal and i can brush it off, but when its every fucking day 5 times or so a day for a year it really takes its toll

@wendiko i will legitimately die from the heat, its 80 in my room and im in hell. Im a winter boi.

I wear shorts and a sweatshirt in 10 degree weather

I could probably help with that @Sir Harndes, ive got no problem talking with women. And i know it may sound bs but if you recognize patterns you can understand them.

Men are at least accurate machines, women can be loose cannons.

Is that a prison or a high school? Kinda the same thing but ok

@wendiko i live 30 mins from the city

Depending on traffic

@DAnteForneus frirndzone so they can chase others

I was put in the friendzone a while back. The gal legit told me and i fucking quote "im saving you as a backup incase my other relationships dont work out"
Thats the last convo we had, last friendly one at that. And she wonders why men ghost her

Leave them something to search for in you.

Something interesting, captivating

If you show all shell know all.

@Sir Harndes properly introduce yourself but try to not make it embarrassing or a scene. A small hello and start small talking about something that may interest her or has something to do with her. Like a compliment about her shirt or backpack.

Dont make it that way. If you can assimilate into the group you have a larger influence. If you can maintain a friendship with just her thats great, but the whole group? That shows that you're in it for them, and not yourself.

Be selfless at first, ease yourself in and let them talk. Women like someone who can listen

And keep secrets

What do you mean

If you can befriend one, great. If you can befriend them all, then they trust you more. Be a part of the group.

Like a fine wine or cheese it takes patience, the right ingredients, slow and steady movements, and time

Thats another thing, if anyone has any questions about ANYTHING hit me up. Because i had no friends for most of hs i spent my time researching things and watching documentaries.

And if i don't know the answer i will research the fuck out of it

@Sir Harndes then is she the one?

Are you going after her based only on looks? Or common interest?

Heritage?

Is that a reason to date someone?

Find someone who completes you, and that you complete.

Skin will wrinkle someday.

Im Italian and german. I know this stuff

Gtg

Why though? If looks and heritage are all that's attracting you is it worth it? Would you boog with a gun just because it looks cool and is made by a company that you like? Or would you use something that functions how you need it to?

Its a good start, but is it where you want to finish?

Then why pursue?

Are you pursuing a friendship or relationship?

@DAnteForneus dont focus on physical contact, focus on protecting her

That may be the worst thing for her rn

Thats not what it means to protect

The guard doesn't farm for the village

Its in their genetic code.

As with ours to protect

Its how we evolved

@Sir Harndes good luck,trust your instincts

Thanks for distracting me guys.

@Sir Harndes gute nacht

@DAnteForneus focus on being a good friend first. Dont rush it.

You cant rush a good stew

Theres the download

Yeeaaah good night my dudes

Why would you waste a tribute cherry lime? The boog gods would want you to drink it not needlessly spill it.

That sounds like dehydration

Ayy smokey the bear with an m14. *ONLY YOU CAN PREVENT TYRANNY*

No, it just says "PRAISE THE OMNISSAH AND GRANT THIS MACHINE SPIRPT GUIDANCE AND VICTORY IN BATTLE"

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Do it out not because you can, do it because its right. He has a position of influence on the young. Spewing racist rhetoric like that is not good on the young minds. Look at colleges for example. Indoctrination camps you pay to go to

Or you could laugh it off

Ive got cuts all over both my hands, albeit small ones, but theres a lot. After setting up a display i forgot about the cuts and used hand sanitizer. I felt like ghost rider for a good 10 minutes.

Not badass but full of fire

Mostly on my hands

@thedarkness05 whats all over the blade then?

@Trash Squid the yellow? I can only find the sugar free ones, that ones taste makes me want to puke.

Red power is the one i can never get sick of or from. I prefer most of the flavors warm. Cypx and gforce are the only 2 ill refrigerate.

Then again i can only find a few flavors around here.
1. Tribute cherry lime
2. Tribute active mandarin (including SF)
3. Tribute Cypx
4. Stinger mo
5. Power and SF power
6. G-force
7. Yellow citrus x sugar free only