god

whatever you want to call it

not only can you not grow, you'll call whatever prevents you from growing a good thing

and maybe even see it as a good thing

now this is speculation, MAYBE there is a part of you that understands this in some weak fashion

actually you have a point

he overcomes challenges by change

in fact he seeks it

I overcome challenges by cleverness and stubbornly refusing to change

good catch

well you can reduce it to that, I meant more in a completely internal way

well no, it's true

yeah, what you said is right

even internally I overcome challenges that way

I overcome challenges with others by defining them as human pollution and a separate species

which means you don't actually overcome challenges

how so?

you just sideline them,

there is no room for "maybe I'm wrong" in a Ludvig

he's grown, he knows

after he's past something

it's not a matter of redefinition, mental games

or whatever else

but any of us could always be wrong, that is just intellectual honesty

you've got to stop using your faculty for logic

as a way to disable your spirit

like what you just said

I often consider that the last 15 years of my life was completely misspent

yes, of course that is correct

anyone can always be wrong

at the same time, there is the pull of the deeply felt truth

that you cannot say no to

no matter how much you want

I don't

I just do not share it

that is private

such a thing cannot truly be private, it's your true self

and that's why you would be unable to grow

vulnerability allows growth

I see what you mean

to an extent I agree

I find my life goes better when I am a bit more real and raw

and let my "true self" hang out

but I also know that if I fully exposed myself I would be penniless and ostracized in moments

my belief is, everyone is vulnerable

he who is invulnerable, isn't real

I make myself vulnerable

I get you

I agree

so basically I am fake because I am so guarded, which is true

but I don't know how it is for you really

in terms of how it feels

no, that's exactly how it feels

do you appreciate how much you come off that way to others though? I've always wondered

in online chats I mean

not real life

I wake up in the morning and before I leave, I look in the mirror and swear an oath to never say anything true about myself to any coworker or stranger I meet

I seriously do that every day

and then I don't

they are still not sure which part of the country I am even from

I tell different stories to different people

they do not know if I like them or hate them

they are never sure if I am serious when I say things

people with your "problem" can indeed become very successful in life

by feeding the beast

sociopaths are CEOs, NPD people are superstars

you're right

but the thing is, I do not enjoy it

they don't either

that's what I'm on about, it's ultimately empty

I only want to get enough money to be able to afford rent and lentils indefinitely

and then I will quit everything forever

do you think you could do that though

absolutely

does this quit everything include basically socialzing on the internet

that's a part of it right?

you're going to use the internet as your valve

or is it a full hermit mode

basically once I quit everything I will never misrepresent myself ever again

RENT?

FUCK THAT

GET A HOMESTEAD

AND GROW LENTILS

and pay rent to the government instead

New Neocon levelof low

https://twitter.com/realDonaldTrump/status/850723509370327040

YOU PAY EITHER WAY

what's wrong with that tweet?

ALSO

IF IT IS A WORKING FARM

GENERATE TAXES AND DEDUCT

that's gay

OR RUN A NOT FOR PROFIT

"military men and women"

it's a bland platitude

"the world"

Neocon on steroids

prozak if you are willing I would want to talk to you about the pros and cons of land ownership

IT WILL BE READ AS A GLOBALIST PLATITUDE

because there are definite cons