Deal

I cant drink booze thi

Rare allergy to alchohol

I'm more of a soda guy myself

We'll get hopped up on Mtn Dew, booger sugar, and concerning amounts of artillery.

Im very straight edge lll i dont smoke or even drink pop

All my friends make fun of me so hard for my pending charges cause like. That aint me. Im straight af lmfao

I occasionally drink glass bottle sodas lol. Hardcore i know

Goddamn you're hard as fuck my dude. You gon' lead some gangs n shieeet.

Nah I feel you though.

Never tried pot or a cigarette

Im like the Mr Rogers/Bob Ross of my friends, except i say fuck, and nigger

Yet i married this absolute little demon pyschopath. It is truly puzzling

Psychopaths unfortunately can lay undetected until they've entered your life.

I'm very grateful my experience with them has be limited and inconsequencial, but nobody is immune.

I daresay that the biggest threats to goons from largest to small starts with domestic partners, economy/legal and then government.

No i just grew up in amd out of foster care so i didnt realjze my relationship was so abusive

Sorry fam 😦

I never dealt with the foster system but my childhood was not enjoyable through legal hoops and treatment via my father's side of the family.

Felt

My lifes been rough as fuck but i make the best of it, most people cant tell because i stay positive despite it

Im not all edgy and doomer about my past i try to use it as a way to show people tjey can overcome anytbhing

I am grateful my life led me to my job, living situation and worldview. I think that's something many of us can take away from it. The past sucks but it's not like we're there anymore.

Right

That and hell if i can beat all.my shit and life a decent life why cant someone else

Im an excuse remover lol

Fair enough

I also try to make backup plans for "what if" scenarios which is why I recommended the blackpowder thing. I think pre-planning can alleviate some of the worst of bad situations that can arise. Not that I have all the answers, I'll still be pretty boned if I'm caught unaware.

Dont get caught lackin son

Jesus christ those were some fucking interesting videos.

Sup dudes, you wanna point loaded firearms at each other?

I dunno lemme think abou- YES

Lol what videos

We point guns at 🅱️ enis

My fellow kings are too afraid to point loaded guns at me...it's my kink 😦

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4nHnJULnL6w

@Bard I got stories about gunplay lmao

Not for here tho, the lady is lurking

@Schadraquetor bruh *no*

Lmfao

Lmao I got a few small ones, the crazy bitch that I was with for the past 2 1/2 years (now she's dating a convict of unknown identity) wanted me to point my loaded guns large and small at her because it turned her on, it was weird at first but I've definitely been there

I mean I ain't here to kinkshame. Gotta get jiggy with it if it's consenting adults.

are you really kings if you can't point a loaded firearms at each other?

i mean come on, that's faith that's trust, that's valuable

It's for the closest of Kings

I finna never thought of it like that

Personally I dont like getting flagged, but its usually be cause they arent paying attention to what they're doing

^now I am not advocating for being okay with retards you're trying to teach at the range flagging you, been there and that shit gets me riled like nothing else

Same. But if its kings in a consenting manner, than its gucci

Its like a trust fall, an extreme trust fall

"Keep your finger off the trigger" *puts finger on trigger* "Dude stop putting your finger on the trigger, keep it pointed downrange" "oKaY sOrRY!" *fires 5 rounds* *puts finger on trigger and lets it drop to be pointed at my foot*

Yeah no fuck that

@ what bard said

Shit gives me an anuresim

that particular case is a 100% true story from when I was teaching army rotc retards how to shoot a handgun in our marksmanship club

dude was a buddah buddah indian and his ass was never coming back

Good

I mean I haven't had anyone do something too stupid, but then again if I dont know they're ability I treat them like babies

motivate yourself however you can

but **do it.**

I've just been kinda fucking depressed lately. Burnt out with work and just tired

F

I understand man. Try to take it easy. Do something for yourself and be sure to take time to heal. Its a negative feedback loop unless you get to fixing it now

Yeah you're not wrong. Household factors dont help it either. But I definitely need to take a day or two off work

Do it king

Fuck them, they make enough off your work

Do what you need to do

Yeah, rest of team is taking PTO through this week and next week. Got PTO this weekend. I'm gonna take like 2 or 3 days mid March I think all other days are taken:(

Get it where you can man. Count those days

anxiety is bad

i hate it

Just havin a minute? Or some real shit goin on @CPL Henry.L[3SFG]?

@CPL Henry.L[3SFG]https://youtu.be/t5qtrhE6Fmg

https://youtu.be/MTU1UuY4bic

https://youtu.be/AK0Q6wRtsyU

https://youtu.be/M6ESOZhyEN0

Some short, some long, i emplore you to listen, they helped me. @CPL Henry.L[3SFG]

Manly Hall and Jordan Peterson

I have some shit going down

It’s bad

Not bad to the point of me wanting to kill myself but it’s less than fun

Chop it up hugs

Thanks though I’ll have to watch those @/K/aptainBlastin

@Ramrod1992 manly hall is the grandfather everyone needs

Yo I've been married for four years, love my wife, been with her for six years total-

But I have to actually prevent myself from having any contact with the first girl I ever fell in love with because (a) she's like, crazy attractive and makes me feel some kinda next level way (b) is literally incredibly bad for me on every level. She's unhealthy and totally bonkers, as well as a raging sjw now

I haven't talked to her in 5 years and I still feel this way.

Am I totally insane? Is this normal?

How could you call yourself insane? I'm assuming you're a healthy testosterone producing male. The crazy ones are always the best in bed and it's pretty natural to want that. Don't put yourself down, but don't cheat on your wife either if she's been faithful to you and you are happy in that relationship.

Like I'm not friends with her on any social media, no follows, nothing, no contact. Won't do it. I know where she works and I won't go there either

No I absolutely have no plans to be unfaithful

It's a dark road to go down and it can destroy families, defy the natural man, I believe that's in the bible somewhere

Not gonna happen. I hate cheating and it's absolutely unbiblical.

I've just never told anyone about this because it's such a strange feeling and I feel wrong for even having it

Crazy you bring that up. Been with my wife 8, married for 7 and my first love actually reached out to me last week.

Don't do it

I've talked to her but I was real with her

Luckily I kinda hate her still

I feel like that "first love feeling" never leaves completely and it's a powerful feeling

I don't hate my ex at all

Mine played with my emotions a bunch

We were together from like 13-17 and I ended it because I recognized how bad for me she was, and wasn't marriable ever

Really fucked me up in the head

I feel that mang

But she was bad for membecause she brought out every irresponsible and free living undisciplined version of myself I struggle with controlling

I talked to my ex on and off when my wife and I first got together and I really regret talking to her the way I did

So it was like, fun, even, in the worse way

I just went solid no contact

Have been that way since 2015

My ex blocked me years ago because I was drunk and talking dumb

I hate that I do that

Then just reached out to me last week

One time.my.wife left for a 4 day conference and I got drunk and nearly texted this girl some long bullshit about how I never forgot how she made me feel and I'm so thankful I never sent it

Yeah good on you bro fr

I love my wife and I love what we have

Don't wanna fuck it up

Same man

When home girl hit me up last week my first message to her was pretty much "listen I'm sorry for the way I acted and the way we talked, I love my wife and family, and don't want to ruin that"

Especially with someone as... Low Value as my ex like fr she has zero life skills and did nothing but waste so much of my energy

Smart

Dude same

God it feels good to actually talk about this, I've had these thoughts for like 5 years and never shared them

This hoe still works at home depot and lives with her parents. She literally just saves money to travel to different countries and pork random dudes

Good man

It's cool we're all safe here but still a level of anonymity

My ex literally dropped out of musical theatre college because she couldn't get any roles and now she works at sbux and lives with 3 people, she's 26

Right

😂

My ex is 27 man

Like musical theatre college is the easiest college

How dumb do you have to be

Idk how these people are pushing middle aged and not trying to better themselves

And then it's like, how dumb do *I* have to be if I want to talk to her again sometimes?

So I just actively prevent any contact

I mean I feel you man. I went through the same thing. And I'm really glad nothing ever happened

I'm so happy I don't subscribe to that "hear wants what the heart wants" bullshit

Yeah bro, sometimes it's not even the heart

It's a combo of my dick and nostalgia

Dude you get it

I was stationed at Fort Campbell and thought "well she's 1500 miles away, can't hurt to snap her"

Yike

Then the snaps started rolling in "when you coming home on leave?"

Yike

X2

Super glad I didn't follow through on anything man

I'm happy for you

I thought she was super fucking attractive plus she got a boob job too

Triple mf D's man on a petite girl

The other thing that keeps me from ever contacting mine is the fact that she's *an untrustworthy hoe* and would probably blackmail me

Ahhh fuck

> Triple mf D's man on a petite girl
@SavageMedic damm

Like I ain't wanna give anyone the power to fuck up my life like that

And she would do it just for fun

Has your desire lessened over time?

Not really

Probably because I've never processed it

It was weird man, I wanted the same. Just to keep talking to her and whatever, but it just went away here recently

I was scared when she hit me up last week, but hell we talked a bunch the first night and ain't heard from her since

That's good

I think the reason it never went away is because when I met my wife I was talking with my ex and thinking about getting back with her, but my wife was wayyyy better for me so I got with her and just cold turkey cut my ex out of my life, NC permanently with no explanation.

I mean if my wife ever left me I'd probably get ripped on white claws and cocaine and give her a porkin but it'd be a 1 and done just to seem dem tiddies

Lmao I feel that

Kinda the same man

To be completely honest I have to actually stop myself from allowing that to become a fantasy.

Im just lurking but know this is super healthy

I enjoy kings helping kings

Like I have really disciplined myself to keep those thoughts out of my head

Thanks mayne

Just like with everything man, gotta balance yourself

I just don't wanna feed that particular tiger

Same way we control not starting the boogaloo today

Hahaha

That's crazy man, sounds like our exes/situations are pretty similar

Nobody on this Earth has a unique experience

Big facts

But yeah man, it's wild how girls fuck your feelings around

Man I was gonna mention that earlier and forgot

She fucked with my head bad

And I let it happen

Never tell them they do that to you tho or they'll use it

I told this hoe last Friday everything

I tried guilt tripping her ass

I was just going to college, she left me and pretty much said so we can see other people (she wanted to hoe), and I went through a bad depression. I had a mini 14 in my mouth at one point

If you ever find yourself saying "you make me feel (*anything negative*)" in a conversation with a female, stop, because they'll lose respect.

Damn tho man I'm sorry you felt that way fr

I was just guilt tripping and being dumb because I was drunk lol.

But yeah man I was crazy overweight too. Within a year I went from being overweight and suicidal to losing like 60lbs, meeting my wife, and joining the Army

Sounds like you just needed to buff your confidence

Being overweight is actually so bad for self confidence

It is man. And I let myself go again since I been out like 3 years now

Like I'm fit again at 177 but back in October I was 195 and everything about me was unconfident

Man I was like 250-260 lol

I'm only 5'10"

Ahhh

I'm 6'1

Gotcha yeah

But I'm in the gym 3x a week and on the ice twice a week

So I'm solid

By ice I mean Hockey rink

Not drugs

Hahaha

Fuck yeah man

Lol

I got a gym membership and have been trying to hit it when I can but I'm literally getting fucked in hw rn

Homework lol

Gotta make time

Literally prioritize your schedule around it

I know man, I'm thinking about going after class now

Yeet

I get out kinda early

Do it

I'm struggling in a couple classes too so like I'm trying to give myself extra time to study

Pick up a sport and use it to motivate you

Nothing will get you in the gym faster than being the worst guy on a shit tier team because you can't run or swim or skate or whatever

It's not a good feeling

Haha

That's definitely an idea

I used hockey and it changed my life

I'd deff have to prioritize my time tho fr

I already don't feel like there's enough time

Not*

I get it

I run my own business so I'm v busy and I've sacrificed sales to make sure I hit the gym or the ice

It's about priorities

Damn blood

I can't do well at business if I'm not physically confident

And I need to be in shape for that

What do you do?

Everything stems from our perception of who we are

I work on the music industry

Run a production studio

Hell yeah I bet that's fun

It's great and also a fuck ton of work

I'm also a primary brand consultant and developer for PWave

Cuz we are monetizing it

Booiiiiii

Today has been rough, it's pretty clear over the past few months that my grand father is getting worse. It's either Alzheimer's or dementia.

That's really sad man I'm sorry

It's rough to say the least.

But the one funny thing is, he's become "based" as he's forgotten things

Unwinding these past few decades of ""programming"" I bet. . . I'm sorry Merc. I hope however things go, they go smoothly and peacefully. We're here for you.

I appreciate it

That's awful dude, my grandparents are slowly slipping away I need to see them before they die

So many stories and memories lost to time's ceaseless decay and rebirth, I pray that you're able to find peace despite that awful realization

I'm just glad I have All this time with him.

@Hellhound6 sorry to hear that

Happened the same thing to my great-aunt

F m8

i know this is fucking weak but god damn im addicted to sugar

i dont drink or smoke but i will eat like a fucking 15 year old