That makes sense

It's hard when you really love the animal

Like if one of my goats got sick and had to he put down I wouldn't be that sad. But if it happened to one of my birds I'd be distraught

But it's always better to spare animals the long term suffering if we can

I know you know that tho. I will pray your animal gets better or finds rest peacefully

hey guys, was having a really shitty day today, and almost yeeted myself, calmed down tho

I'm having my first beer(also alcoholic beverage) in over a year and some spicy jerky

still a shitty day, but somehow bwtter

wut happened bud

had an argument with my mom, since I went home early from work today and was vomitting, she got angry because I'd make less money

I couldn't deal with that shit, and was gonna jump off a mountain nearby

Jeeez man....

Don't do it bro

Thats lame. But I'm glad you didnt yeet yourself. Idk what the issue is with you mom, but thats wrong. Money or no, your health is more important

yee u dont deserve that shit

You're a king, you needa act like one. If you're sick, get better. Shouldn't worry too much about what other people say. Jist think about your own happiness for once

yeah, been talking with some friends for the last hour

I was always putting myself out there for others, and even when I got fucked over, I was stupid enough to go and help thise same people. Mind you this is family. They say they care but only when the money and free shit is flowing

Don't be like me man. Live your best life. Don't kill yourself over others.

yeah

was thinking of just dropping everything and going somewhere once I saved up

You should

yeah idk where tho

I moved to AZ to escape these motherfuckers. But somehow they pulled me back i to their lives, so I'm in vegas "visiting" them again

My mom is cucked, she basically can't do jack shit without my grandparents "approval" despite being homeless a fee times

goddamn

Oh I LOVED Being homeless man... It was wonderful... Starving and not eating for days at a time. It was fantastic freezing on the streets, so much fun being in the rain and bare minimum of shelter

sounds fucked, can't believe people do that as a hobby now

I know. It's retarded as shit

In Las Vegas, it's practically a sport

wait

Huh?

are people actually becoming homeless as a hobby?

yeah

Yes

bruh

ikr

In Las Vegas, these fuckers have "underground" competitions, like those survivalist challenges

Like the Stalker challenge. but instead, you're "homeless for fun"

wait, the stalker challenge?

Shitbags man.... And a lot of them have money like crazy also, so they're basically throwing it away for retarded shit and "good goy" points

@NovaSoldier Yes. There's a fee challenges like that

bbl though. I need serious sleep

man

thats fucked

goodnight, king

night man

sleep well

I knew about the hobby thing because there's people doing vids on it

@Shura37564 message me if ya want. I'm always open when I can reply

sure thing, man

@Shura37564 happy you didn't yeet yourself bud.

@Bodark Actual thanks

I spent a few hours just looking at my town

I was gonna do it at my favorite spot

it's viewing platform where you can see the entire town

it looks like this at night

Looks like a beautiful place to stay alive and make dope shit happen for yourself

I feel like it is. @Shura37564 we gotta get you to a better place mentally. We're all in your corner, you just gotta say the word king

yeah, I'm working on myself atm, just that today made me snap

being sick sucks ass

and then I have a bunch of people calling me because I took half a day off

I know chief. But you're doing good

@Shura37564 turn off your phone and just ignore them. You need to put your own health and needs first.

We're all here for you

yeah, thanks, kings

I'm having some retarded levels of anxiety today

I have $3700 worth of outstanding invoices that aren't being paid and it's fucking me up

People don't realize that they're fucking with my livelihood when they decide to late me on everything

@Bodark Actual that's fucked.

Can you send a reminder invoice?

I have they're ignoring it

My wife works and I have some money bust still fuck

@Bodark Actual cant send to a collection agency?

Nope, I'm not big enough for that

I have a meeting with them tomorrow

It's just frustrating

@Bodark Actual wishing you the best of luck at this meeting tomorrow. No one should fuck around with someone else's livleyhood

I've got a job interview tonight and I'm so desperate for a job

Terrifying

@Bard good luck dude, you have this in the bag

@Bodark Actual It's sucks to have to deal with that. I find on average that bad debts may account for 0.5-1% of turnover annually. Ultimately, it's the honest customers that end up paying for it.

( still catching up - skimming - but glad you're still here, @Shura37564 )

@Bard good luck, King - I'm sure you got it.

@Bodark Actual idk how no one takes invoicing seriously ( see : *paying / processing them* )

The last resort I worked for literally got taken off of Expedia for a MONTH because Head Office managed to let it slip. . . and apparently they're *extremely* bad for it with all departments.

I hope that pay day comes in soon, boss.

@INNYGMATYK thanks man, hope you're having a good day

@Shura37564 The best innahotminnit, not gonna lie.

Wish I had that kind of a view though - natural scenery is nice and all, but I do love me a big slice of nighttime cityscape

@INNYGMATYK yeah, funny thing is, that viewing platform is surrounded by the forest up in the mountain, my area is pretty famous for ski resorts, so lots of natural scenery too

Yeah - but we don't have a city with more than 100 000 people within some 300 odd miles <:lol:554425196283559938>

We have a lot of mountains and rainforest here though.

I'm sure the drive up to the spot where you took that pic is amazing

haha, despite how it looks, my city only has a population a bit more than 50k people

If I get this job tonight I'll be moving to Omaha for the summer. Anybody to link up with near there?

Well I'm a bit pissed....

??

Long story short, I'm slow as shit and something I've been waiting for and FINALLY can afford, Is out of stock

yeah that's no fun. . .

Agreed man.... Agreed.... It was something that I thought would never come back too. So I figured I'd save the money for something else. I barely found out about it being "in stock" a few hours ago.... And its been back since Monday

I guess you can save said money for more gucci gear though?

@INNYGMATYK I really need a gun.

Fuck - sorry - I try not to pay attention to who has what - wasn't sure if you were buying ONE or AN OTHER

Lol it's cool man

@насильственное убийство what piece were you looking at?

Just about asleep, wake up to banging on door.<:madrage:554427042423373835> <:madrage:554427042423373835> <:madrage:554427042423373835> <:madrage:554427042423373835>

Inb4 @Hellhound6 gets raided

Jk

No polices for smol man

If it was a raid they'd need the hulk. I'd just mag dump

All due to lack of sleep

I say its jesus types looking to convert him

They become new mugs

Well, their skulls do

@thedarkness05 That one Serb ak that has the rpk barrel/reciever with underfolding stock. Ya'know. The grenade one.

@Hellhound6 I've always wanted to keep a shrunken head as a hood ornament for my truck

@насильственное убийство how's the cousin bud?

Shrunken heads are cool, always wanted one

@Hellhound6 Josie? She's doing so much better, shouod be out of the shithole inna fee months. Massive improvement

Glad to hear it bud

But yes, I do want that kalash. I want all the guns

Agreed man

@насильственное убийство glad to hear it

Thanks, I'm super happy for her, can't wait til she gets out

I'm losing my shit, record company has just put off paying for my shit yet again

AhhhhhhhhHHHHHHH this sucks so bad

Seriously anxious. Fuck! I have bills next week.

how can they even do that

I don't know

like are they just taking your shit without paying?

They have my invoice, I've been on their office, consulted with their management and their artists, got all their project groundwork laid and they have yet to pull the trigger on kicking the project off.

I won't work for free

They want so much music done that I've put off all my other client work or just not booked anything new until for this month or next

Now I'm in limbo until they figure it out and I'm fucking pissed that they're yanking my chain like this.

This is my fucking livelihood.

They're fine with the rate, they're confident in my work, they all vibe with me super good, but they keep putting off payment and it is absolutely maddening.

Every time I talk to them "I didn't have time today, I will revisit it tomorrow/next week/whatever"

Fucking FUCK.

thats big fucking gay

I mean you could always imply the threat of lawsuits

At this point I'm full stop because they won't finalize my contract.

Like **COMMIT TO A DEADLINE OR JUST TELL ME YOURE NOT GOING TO HIRE ME.**

I've been getting madder and madder about this for like a week

Fucking record companies.

I need to vent about it or I'm going to blow the deal by being an idiot in a meeting sorry I'm getting mad.

No man - vent the fuck away

I'd be livid, especially if they were already late and then, today, pulled a "" aw yea bud I can't right now lol ""

Literally cleared my fucking schedule so I could handle their deadlines, ***told other paying clients I couldn't work on another project because I was too busy*** and they won't do the legwork to finalize my contract and pay me the **very reasonable $2600** I'm owed to get started.

. . . yeah I wouldn't threaten lawsuits, but I **WOULD** firmly tell them you've missed on other work opps because of this BS

And then give them a deadline or cancel.

Like the total project value is over $20000 which is why I'm even still fucking with this

Literally anyone else does this shit and I fire them immediately

@INNYGMATYK good idea.

Yeah - they might just be operating on some "" it's cool lol we got time "" mindset, and they need to be notified that they're now disrupting work for OTHER artists who want to get shit done.

Yeah, but whos on more of a time crunch?

Lawsuit / legal work might put them off and sour relations

But letting them know just how much they're fucki g up your shit, and that your future business relations are hanging on it, oughta motivate them.

You're not wrong @thedarkness05 - I just think people listen more if you tell then ""You're in the way. And if you don't move, I'm going to go through you and move on.""

Absolutely

Like, if you told me I was bothering you - fine - whatever.

But if you tell me I'm bothering other people / EVERYONE

well. . .

I'm not saying its the first option. But it is an option. Just lile arson

@thedarkness05 No future contracts if they go broke rebuilding their house <:lol:554425196283559938>

But idk if I'd really work with people like this more than once. . .

It sends a message to the rest. "Pay on time, or accidents happen" , classic NY mafioso moves

@INNYGMATYK it's a lot of money.

@Bodark Actual yeah, it is.

And I'm essentially getting paid to deal with the trouble, which I get

Which would be frustrating me more because, in my head, money/success = efficiency/professionalism

and clearly that isn't a consistent relationship lol

Not in music.

This is very common any time we are dealing with labels.

If it wouldn't rock the boat too much, I'd be threatening a late fee / inconvenience charge / deposit

I currently have a lawsuit and criminal trial pending that I've been dealing with for over 2 years now, kinda wish I had somebody to talk about it but I don't really wanna do it over discord messages

Against you or someone else

@Bard I ain no fuckin legal help - but I'm always open to listen

Against me and about 7 other people

If ya want chief, I have a very intimate understanding of the legal system

The criminal case only being me

You can pm me anytime

@Bard are you on Signal yet?

I was thinking about hopping into comms later tonight and just talking about it

Yeah I have signal, barely use it though

Same - but if you're iffy on where to vent

Aight. I'll be on my usual bullshit 0000 est if ya want

Sounds good

I might come lurk if that's chill

It somewhat involves firearms in a completely non violent or illegal possession way so it might be interesting to hear about, that wasn't sarcasm btw

I don't know what you're talking about, but 2100 PST sounds good

Mainly I just want to get some of the load off my chest

I'll be there

I mean, hell, I'm not busy right now

I unfortunately am

All good - just keep plowin man

Thanks king, I love this community

Apes Together Stronk.

I wrote this for my contact with the label

Hey Danielle, hope everything is going well today. 


You expressed to me during our initial meeting that you wanted to get things moving very quickly as there was a great deal of work to do. As a result I have tried to follow up consistently when stated deadlines/timetables weren't met. This is standard for me in dealing with nearly any of my clientelle and generally it's appreciated as their projects move faster as a result. 


I've spent the last two weeks being as patient as possible with this process, being super flexible about you guys getting me legal docs + payment finalized so we can move forward with this project. I have, in good faith, spent many hours getting to know your team and your personelI. I have prepared as thoroughly as possible to make this process as conducive to your goals as possible.

Have you sent it or is this a draft?

Sorry - just saw this

It was half of it

I had to take a call Midway through copy pasting it @INNYGMATYK

It's okay I'm sending nothing. I called my business coach and he gave me advice.

@Bodark Actual what he say

It's a record label apparently this is normal

Don't adjust my workflow, re-up all the clients, and be patient.

That last part will be critical - but good call in contacting them for another edge.

I hope this shit wraps up nicely for you, in spite of how it's going

Same. Business is business. I wouldnt be breaking a sweat about it if the mortgage wasn't due and I hadn't just spent $900 on plumbing repairs and car insurance changes last week

Yeah sounds like you're getting right fucked on timing. . .

Exactly

Life is frustrating. No matter how much I try to be happy and dedicated, something kick my balls and leave me on the ground

Like, fuck

Dunno what I should say

Im pissed off and sad at the same time

People tell me to keep trying, but I cant see the point, I never achieve anything

The only thing that keeps me looking looking foward are my friends and family

Just venting. Nothing specific. Thank you all

Keep venting. I'd offer advice but I dunno much. But whatever I can help with, I'll try.

im tired

not physically

emotionally

I'm actually in a similar boat....

I guess the only thing we have left is just find something to pass the time at this point...

I'm still trying to find something though....

^^

Outcome independence

You have to trust in yourself and be confident that you'll be able to handle whatever comes your way regardless of outcome.

That's the problem

I can't trust myself

Why not?

Because no matter how I try, I cant

Sounds bland

Life in general is frustrating man. We don't follow a set course and humans are weird fuckin animals. Every choice changes the course of your fate and destiny, and while it might seem hopeless now, theres always a light at the end of the tunnel man. Someday you'll look back at the hard times and see they turned you into a strong and proud man. But that's only if you don't let them break you mate. You can do whatever you set your heart to doing. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but who knows what the future brings yeah?

I try to not let'em break me, but Im being attack in all sides, too much fucking problems

2 deaths of loved ones in a roll

Don't like to go to the gym anymore

Jobless

When I look to the gal I like, I see a beautiful, short blond hair, bright eyed, sweet, confident and successful woman

When I look at the mirror, I see this piece of crap

I knew she liked me before, but I was too dumb

Sorry, sounding doomer

You need purpose, activity, hobbies.

And a job so that you feel productive.

That's what made me stop any activity

I don't have a purpose

No matter how I try to find one

At the end of the line, it wont matter

You may not agree with it, but that's what I see how things work, unfortunately

I get it man. No worries. It's hard to be there.

@Sir Harndes until your world view changes, you'll be where you are.

Your purpose RN is sustaining until you make it to the US if that's your goal. Your purpose is to be a good man. Your purpose is to eventually have kids and make sure they are good offspring. And if you believe in liberty, to uphold it and do so by virtue. Not because others are, but because you'll be willing to be the lone dude ready to defend what's right.

But you're asking us what purpose life has.

Its purpose isnt some Devine shit. It isnt something handed to you.

You've got to come up with it. Consider lifes purpose to be the experiences and people we meet along the way. Consider the good and the bad. That without the bad, wed have nothing to gauge good off of.

Which means while bad sucks....they help us with perspective

But yeah. All we have in life is experiences.

So make good ones.

And be yourself

Of you dont like yourself, immediately work on yourself.

But all you have is you on this. No friend, woman, family member can define any of this for you.