Damn that gf one is fucked, but you definitely shouldn't blame yourself, it sounds like you had no control over the situation

I strongly suggest trying not to blame yourself or worry to much about things that are beyond your control, it only makes life worse

We have no way to control fate

what would lieing get me? some pitty from ppl on internet? why i would need that?

like to become emotionless to the world around ya find a gola and do everything to achive that. you want have time to think

@DAnteForneus maybe that im emotionless prick who make everyone mad and feel nothing about it

but idk thats kind a deep emotional shit

and im trying to help ya but im not realy comapsioned i count i do science and when i do that i see that emotions and feels are just bumch of chemical and psychical reactions

yea they are i tried getting rid of emotions but it won't help

with out them you are living like a robot

with out them whats is point of living?

@DAnteForneus achiving goals

watch this movie

it helped me with feels

i learned that scoring a gola is ultimate value

and any other things doesnt matter when you on a way to achive that

i only live for shit like this for ardenaline rush that first kiss with loveone gives happenes that you did something great

find a goal

small one at first like climbing local hill

then go bigger like geting promotion

then bigger

and so on so one

and push forward without looking at people

trust me i stoped carring about ppl

i hate most of them just for being themself

almost everyone of them is acting like fucking npc in skyrim

man im acting like npc irl like go to school go home study sleep repeat

that give you immunity to the world around ya

acting like one doesn't mean you are one

i do that to thats how we need to live to not to be outcast from society

and to be hostest i stoped carring about that

im outcast like dont have real friends

i started to like being alone

yep we are in the same stage like sitting alone with headphones is better option tha talking with ppl in my class

(i mean of isolation not problems of live)

have you got dreams about doing mass shooting or other fucked up shit?

nope

i don't really remember what happends in my dreams

if i remember they are nightmares

like some strong dreams are mostly connected with sufering or makeing others suffer

and ends up the same

i wake up

and start doing my shit

and then another one

day

end it ends up the same with dream

fucked up dream

and key (in my opinion) to feeling grate is achiving goals and living those dreams trying to memorise them

and man if you will be sometime in future in 3-city that would be nice to go for a round or two (but first i need to nail my sat)

i will hit you up if i ever get there but i think i my go there this summer

Gonna quit my job soon. Hopefully find something else right away. May go work for the post office or federal express. Might be a porter over at a ford dealership

Fingers crossed for you my dude

Thanks. I cant take anymore of the bullshit there...

Yeah I don't blame you one bit.

Chnaging the board up is tough - it can be a struggle.

But fuck man - it's a lot cleaner and nicer when you do.

Im doing well lately, nothing that gave me a reason to get pissed off, or make me sad in some way

But im afraid things get bad again

Or worse

Just focus on staying steady - remaining calm - maintaining control of your situation - etc

It's easier (said than done) to maintain a win streak than to pull yourself out from a loss - as long as you're paying attention and always looking out, both ways, and ahead

on that note - i needa pass the fuck out

but hopefully life's big mean dick is bored with you for a bit

I'll keep my fingers crossed, anon

Just work and we can start a new life here man. Well import our hoes

Lmaoo

Panzer my dad is a postman he says it pays well and you get benefits. Im just not about it

Gotta fight dogs for bitches - n all that.

Man. I'm so fucking stressed out. I owe some much artwork and I'm so fucking broke. Ive been doing this cycle for almost 2 months now and I'm beginning to not love to draw

So find something else to supplement ur work sonur passion dont die

Maybe

I feel compelled to just muscle through this and once I get done I might sell OG work unless it was something I really liked

I am just so fucking broke

As he said, find something just to supplement your work

Do what you love

Never stop doing what you like, and dont give up

Yeah

I need hype kings

I gotta quit being a fucking pussy

and do this shit

I'm a fucking barbarian

This moments of mental agony are merely the sword/mind being forged

Im getting bucks to go back to US. I'll have to start my life from the 0. I dont know what'll happen to me when I get there, but I preffer to risk my life for it than living in my own failure

Know where ya gonna be at in the US

This is thr biggest struggle of my life

Its been the biggest decision I've made so far

Go for it, fam

When I get there, I'll buy that beautiful table you've made

The one with planets and stars

Thanks man ❤

Let me know where you'll be going and I'll scout the area for anything to help you with. I know a lot of people

Do you still have a picture of it?

Yeah

Boy kolony. Stake out your own piece of America. Find a girl start your own legacy

This ring will make us børthers

Yeet

Go help people, king

That's your way to salvation and a purpose unironically

Niggas out here bein like peepeepoopoo doomer yoomer boomer zoomer

When all they gotta do is do be helpin their people out to help themselves

Ain nothin wrong with hippie shid if it's meaninful

If any of your lads wanna do art lemme know

SHARP Training hurt me. How do I file a complaint?

With sharp

Well rip me I guess

<:Oof:554426230724755456>

Mt RushMORE FREDS IN THE ASS NIBBA

Guys

Heres the thing

??

I was selected to a pretty good job opportunity (intership)

Here or there?

As a electrician

Here*

Oof. But solid trade.

Im nervous, cause I now just a few things about the subject

If I get this job, I'll be able to go to US in a year

And with a good amount of money too

More than that homie.

You could save come here and just buy your land.

Yeah

But I really dunno shit about electric stuff

But I was selected

Study and learn

I have less than a week

My interview will be on friday

Well

Guess I have nothing to lose

I dont have a job

But its located in a dangerous area

I know that place, Ive been there

Is it wortj it to you

No

I kinda regret to course this trade school

I could be doing something better

Welp. That didnt last long. Fuckin broke again

That sucks

When you ask a friend what qualities you have, and she literally lies so you can feel "better"

Felt like a punch on my stomach

Ooof im sorry homes

I want to baha blast my fucking brains out.

Wassap dude?

Austrian fag hacked some accounts of mine and it's a bitch to get it unfucked.

FB pages I'm sposin?

(*you should know this*)

Playstation and microsoft. he didn't buy anything, but changed a lot of shit around. Dumbfuck left his name and phone number behind on some settings.

l o l

hit up them free-wifi-texting apps

spam his ass

Not a bad idea

idk how he hacked in, but if you plan on keeping those accounts, I'd be swapping and updating passwords hard, too

already put on two step verification and new long ass passwords, etc. in the meantime i'm setting this jackass up with a grindr account

hell yea boi

start filling out geyboi classifieds, too

also put that shit up on /b/ because i have absolutely no chill

yeah man - fuck him tbh

(albeit, note to self ; never self-dox to /K/owboy lmao)

lol i don't do shit like this unless i'm crossed first. I don't yeet unless yote upon.

Of course - however.

lost two of my boys to suicide this summer

talk to one of your friends if youre feeling low boys

Damn. I'm very sorry to hear that.

its all good. just wish americas version of suicide awareness wasnt just some post on instagram or snap

I agree. A more assertive form of suicide awareness ought to be brought about. It should be treated much more seriously

Thankfully ; America's BIGGEST PROBLEM is illegal immigrants on the border who are said because no gibmedats

forget our mental healhcare - forget our socioeconomic problems on the homefront

tink of teh lil beans.

Sorry man - I can only imagine what you're dealing with - I agree with you though - there ought to be more focus on keeping each other alive through all this shit going on

and yeah - beyond some trendy virtue signal

people rather give a vote or spend a dollar to "fix" what they think is wrong instead of actually taking action because of the laziness

(that's why I try to prioritize any of these channels)

the World runs on Gibmedats and Feelgoods in 2019

yeah if i post an instagram suicide is over!!!

YOU SAVED ALL THE TEENS MY DUDE!

instead of taking training or reaching out to people

PROPS

We gotta lean on eachother and reach out cause Christ knows that the higher ups couldn't give two shits

sadly both of these dudes were firemen too

and the fire department doesnt do any better than the average teenager by posting stupid social media posts and flyers

it really is a huge cultural problem that im surprised isnt more addressed

rant over ig i just needed to vent

Understandable, I hope your night gets better

thanks man. appreciate it

No problem :)

It's what this channel is here for meng - vent it all out

I'm very disgruntled that people I know have been shitting on two of my favorite camo patterns and no one is telling me anything besides "it's shit"

What patterns

Probs jealous of your sweet threads.

It's okay people say coco chip isn't good but we all know it's the best camo for every environment

Me right now

just about same tbh

Broke it off with someone n now I have a giant knot in my chest. Fuck this gey shit

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTATk-25sOQ

^^

I feel that though - I've been trying to break up with two girls for like, 3 months - it's fucking stupid g h e y .

I mean tbf I didn't want it to end but maybe it was for the best

Honestly, it's so hard to ever know.

Inconsistency **is** the biggest bitch though. . .

You ain't lyin

Real talk?

THAT'S what keeps pushing me to the edge.

How often everything is lining toward A, and then circumstance, or someone's incompetence, or you're own spontaneity drices things toward B.

Sometimes it's okay - roll with punches and all that.

But I'm so done being promised or told or expected to be one thing, coming up to it, and then, being. . . *heh* surprised.

The double edge is not beating myself up for being entitled to consistency. Trying to let go of the hold I had on order over chaos, or my comfortable mix of both.

But God. Damn. Man. . . Loosening the leash and swimming in everyone else's fucking river sounds a lot like surrender.

And I ain about it.

(I once wrote a gey that was THIIIS "_____________________" BIG)

oh fuck you.

It be like that

Full on big gey though, I'm just tired of opening up to someone and it getting thrown back in my face

More or less why I've always kept my shit to myself

It be like that too . . .

*When I fall asleep, dreaming/thinking about pedal-powered one man subs, propeller materials, shafts n gears etc (lol), and today, without a word or a peep out of my mouth, FB is suggesting ads for a powertrain shop that sells custom tail housings*


These things are fucking psychic
[Change My Mind]

You're not wrong

Yeah - but apparently I'm not scared enough either. . .

Youd be surprised at the technology thats kept under lock and key

One fuck time at work. I had no phone on me. Im talkinf about Mortal kombat to some dudes. They have their phone ya ?

So when i get home to check FB. 2 FUCKING ads for MK

y u p . . .

it really be some Black Mirror shit

^

@Hellhound6 the arctic patterns or the grey black and white colors and preferred in either the tiger or digital but they don't like that

Problem

My step kid is a vsco girl

A whut

What’s that

the whitest of all white girls

thats what vsco girls are

@tacticaltrap rip

what - no yoga pants?

I have a serious problem, not even being funny

Whats good

I have no filter between brain and mouth, and I ALWAYS have a tendency to say what's on my mind, no matter how BAD orr FUCKED UP it is...

Lmao

Good ol footnmouth

I mean, you saw me the other day when I came over bro, lol. Like... Ya know?

I will make uou eloquent

Well make something for the ladies to like

I told you

*WE HAVE THE TECHNOLOGY*

But it was fun bro, I legit eanna visit again, hopefully at a better time

I think wed have more fun up there

The dogs can zoom off

Hell yeah

We can be roudy

Ahoot roman candles at each other

I got no fence yet, so careful with the doggos

LOO

lol*

We should build one them

I shot a one of those bigass firework Mortars at my friend's car

LOO

looooooool

I was all like "Call me bazooka Jim, bitch" Thump

Yes see aall of that.