Repeatedly i hope

Hell yeah man, I always wanted to do some airborne type shit

https://youtu.be/S2_1KKx70iM

I seenit

Where daddi did the big thing

(Obviously a joke but I'm still skeptical )

@tacticaltrap Je was hired by the gov't... most likely FBI, I think it was revealed

Yeeyee

stop sleeping the guy was hired by the hotel manager to check how secure the windows are but the windows were not secure at all and instead of taking the shame and admitting that their windows are shit he just told him to go ham on the folks and call it a mass shooting

the truth is right there we just need to read between the lines

That doesnt make sense but a plot to instal more "security" at cost of liberty at the hands of the fbi is plausible.

no

I'm definetely determined to talk to the girl I like

Problem

She's always close to her friends, and thats a bump

Bump a line of confidence

What do you mean?

I mean

She's usually with her friends

So you probably wanna go up chad as fuck to ward off the thots and then talk to her normal.

Looks like I don't have another choice

Feck

Guys I have a problem

What's up man?

So I am an adrenaline junkie, I used to do a lot of bullshit nonsense and real dangerous actions to make myself feel super alive for a bit

Now I work from.home and have a business and shit so I don't have time to do that

But it's super stressful, which wouldn't be an issue except for how I cope with it

I don't do drugs or get drunk a lot or anything, I don't step out on my wife or nothing

But when I feel really stressed and need that dopamine magic I turn to porn and it's not good

Last night I had sex with my wife and like, I just couldn't finish and that's never happened before and I'm 99999% because I watch way too much of the shit

tbh, porn us one of the worst things imo. it's bad for the sex life, even worse for the psyche of a man. It takes a toll bro Trust me

As dor the adrenaline junkie thing, mad respect

I am experiencing this. Totally feel it

Short is right, its no good. But I doubt most of us could part with it. I'd suggest finding a balance, maybe talking with your wife about it? Idk, I'm pretty open with my girlfriend and we watch it together sometimes.

She watches it too so it's not an issue but I'm at like 3x a day ish like 10minutes at a time if I start getting bored or anxious

Ok, so maybe find a positive habbit to replace it. Like pushups or putting in work on a heavy bag

^

Exercise helps like a motherfucker, good shit to get that burn

I'm a Fatboy, but I'm doing good at working through it

Already lost 152lbs these past few

I used to be skinny and athletic, but for some reason I became a slob in high school, and a bit after. now I been busting ass to get my shit.

Replacement is what needs to happen

I need something to replace my dopamine needs

that's a tough one bro.

I know your pain bro. Yes the failure to eject was because if the ferocity of meat beating

1 we are at war. Stop letting the low hanging fruit of the enemy tempt you.

Knowing that place the time and energy elsewhere

Absolutely

I never have this issue I watched alot of porn when I was stationed away from my woman, but beating my meat is nothing compared to beating up the wife's meat

Wife has PCOS so sex isn't at regular intervals, unfortunately

So it's hard to avoid porn when I gotta wait 2 weeks at a time cuz she's really sore from ovaries n shit

Not trying to make excuses tho

I mean that's understandable

Man yesterday was shit. Showed up to the range 400 left at 2100

One of the many reasons I got out

Listen chief smoke some dank whenever you want to jerk off. It certainly ain’t a bad habit and it’ll help ur dopamine needs and give you some other minor health benefits but idk where you live so idk if you can

I freaked out

Jesus boy.

My brother taunted me for no fucking reason

And Im tired of this

Drink a big glass of milk pray mahbe even beat off before u do it so you can go into it with post nut clarity

Just dont give up

I never screamed so angrily and so loud in my entire life

He got scared and walked away

What happened to you son

I placed a bottle of alcohol in a table near his contact lenses

Was cleaning some shit

He saw that and taunted me saying to get that shit away from his contact lenses, like it was my intention

I didn't see the god damn things

Okay so?

Why did you freak out about that

He screamed at me like It was my intention

Ah

I didn't know he escalated it

You know when people get angry with you with no reason?

I hate it

I screamed back

Super loud

My family had to intervene

I mean I get it

Not really a healthy response but I get it

@Bodark Actual exactly

Not healthy

But I couldn't control myself

Have to learn to

It was worse before

As men if we can't control our emotions it makes us bad providers and bad warriors

I learned a lot how to control my emotions, but I've been soo sad and angry lately

When I'm angry and/or sad, I tend not to talk to people 'cause I really dont want to be rude with no reason

He doesn't

I dont have to hear him talking garbage

Why do you guys care? Why should you care? Who asked you to? Why doa bunch of strangers show more support than everyone around me? Why do I feel better telling you all about how pathetic I am, rather than just saying "i feel sad" to my parents. Im close with my mother, and ok with dad.
Ive fallen too far into the "men aren't supposed to feel anything" hole haven't i?

apparently

@PanzerWrecker, you good, King?

No

DM me tbh

If i was good would i be here?

truth.

*butIwillnotrepeatmyself*

You dont have to. You dont need to.

You are right he doesn't need to but he wants

Why? Why would you want to help me?

Like some waise mam said apes together strong

Because we police our own homie

Because we all need help sometimes, others have helped us and we want to give back

Whats up?

I help because once i was alone.

Feeling worthless. Like a piss poor excuse for a man. Im always working,i have no hobbies, no time to find love which at this point feels like a waste of time in of itself. Work is only getting busier with Halloween coming up, my works busiest season.

And i dont want anyone to feel that way.

Among other things.

Avarice is the root of all evil

I feel stressed all the time and im wanting to move out of Illinois before this time next year and everything is eating away at me.

I feel you panzer. I'm in a rut too, but I keep getting out of bed every day. Because I have hope I'll succeed, and I'm too stubborn to fail

Hope is the first step towards disappointment

@PanzerWrecker 100% that

BUT

we need you boi

Alright, then lets be pragmatists about it

2 hands?
2 legs?

can you carry and reload?

yeah I thought so.

walk back from the edge with me.

please.

Why? Why does everyone say they need eachother? I could die tomorrow and nothing would change in your life.

ofc.

But I'd know @PanzerWrecker rekt himself.

and I'd feel bad if I felt like I could have done ANYTHING.

Look at this. Im making a mess of things and wasting your time...

Hope is the first step towards disappointment. I agree. World is shit, so you don't have nothing to lose. Take a few shots and see if you hit something

@PanzerWrecker FUQ U THAT'S WHAT THIS CHANNEL IS FOR

U N L O A D N I G G A

Same here. We have to at least help all we can. I have too many names to drink to remember, and I wouldn't like to add to that list. I'd rather drink with them than in remberance of them

@thedarkness05 amen.

Suicide is not the answer i know that, im just fighting a war of attrition against the demon within thats telling me im worthless.

Bruh you aint wasting anyones time. It aint wasted if we're doing good and can help you out

I feel that, dude.

Even if its you just saying what sucks and getting some of that stress out, we got you

I sometimes get these moods right before falling asleep and my mind runs wild and the "voice" (i aint a scitzo) just repeats a lot of things in my head.

The Ultimate Answer is Death.

But the In Between is Up To You.

Come build a Big Igloo.

If you want to speak to someone hit us up we can't make your problems disaper but we Will try to help

I guess im just conditioned to being "the strong one that everyone else goes to" to the point that I dont have anyone to talk to when i need help because ill look weak.

@PanzerWrecker m o o d

but that's why I'M

HERE

Then come here, thats what this is for. No judgement

@PanzerWrecker most people in this channel is swimming in shit. Each individual may find itself a loser, but they still take care of each other. I may not take good care of myself, but surely take care of my buddies six

I only joined this server *for this channel*

@PanzerWrecker don't make me useless.

Im a giant, and a supportive one. Im the oldest of 5 and am the 2nd oldest associate in my store. I have to be strong and hide the pain and stress. And when im most alone it all flushes out. I dont cry though. I wont allow myself to do that.

We all a bunch of bamfs, but that don't mean that we cant share the load every now and then. And i know when Im down , one of you goons will be there to pick me up

this is your place Panzer

even with dry eyes

talk to us, King.

@thedarkness05 any. fucking. day, King.

@PanzerWrecker don't be ashamed of requesting help. Everyone has its limits. Don't do this to yourself. I have a big problem telling my problems to my friends, and it screwed me

Remember

Panzer i know things look bad really bad but it Will get better it always does

No soldier fight alone

Thats the thing too. I dont have any friends. They either legitimately died or moved away...

what timezone Panzer?

No army if made by only one soldier. They always have their support. So you do

Hey man remember were here.

Illinois. Central i guess. Its 0135

I already got a bugga itinerary - I got loads of stops to make.

Aight, then reach out to us. I'm sure we all have a lot in common and can bullshit real good

Exactly

Panzer make some friends here

@PanzerWrecker what you do for work, my man?

Retail.

Hell even if you dont make friends having outside inputs and being able to vent is big

We actually are not that bad

Department Store or Mall Shit?

*Hell even if you dont make friends having outside inputs and being able to vent is big*

t h i s .

Neither really.

go on.

Sounds like you need some resiliency training homie.

Party city.

@PanzerWrecker I have friends, but shit I talk here I wouldn't talk with irl friends

We like to party

No, we dont...

Maybe not in store

Trespassing laws n such

Point is.

WE

ARE

HERE

Everything from the helium shortage to not having our sections set up yet.

Thats the big kicker is the helium shortage

Is that in your hands?

It may seems difficult to make friends, but its acctually thr easiest thing a man can do. Its in our instinct

Also your strssing over some stuff that ultimately isnt your problem right?

Like I do get how it affects your day to day

@PanzerWrecker you innab00g or you Alphabetti?

I worked at a smoke shop big gey

vape is big F E H G

btw

I worked at a movie theater and 7-11

Shit vape, bongs, crack pipe they had it all

I worked at call center

Helium is a non renewable natural gas that is used in a lot of medical and industrial uses that get prioritized over our stores and general public usage to the point that we run out on a weekly basis. Ive had things thrown at me, ive been taunted. A lot of shit in the past year

Im sure I'll never be able to talk with half of this server face to face, but im grateful of being part of it

By customer?

@PanzerWrecker r u

inna

b0g

or a b00g

or a b00l

or H00tennanny?

Aight but the shortage aint your fault. And boo on the customers for being shitty. I hope those karens get whacked first

I don't know which of any of those, but i aint alphabettyboi

all that matters.

we have your 6.

you stuck with us, now.

One of us

ONE

OF

US

ONE

OF

US

ONE

OF

US

One

Here and there its not a big deal and i can brush it off, but when its every fucking day 5 times or so a day for a year it really takes its toll

shit.

Of

Us

@PanzerWrecker if you ever need to talk to someone write here or dm someone here we have goons all around the World so someone will have your back at any time

Come live in az thats where the kolony will be

man, as someone struggling right now, I'm just glad you said anything, @PanzerWrecker

because its fucking

T U F F

asking for ANY advice

LET ALONE

help

@wendiko i will legitimately die from the heat, its 80 in my room and im in hell. Im a winter boi.

We gonna live underground

People here tend to help a lot

I wear shorts and a sweatshirt in 10 degree weather

I mostly just lurk

but if I ever seen an SOS

*in this channel*

I'll drop my cock and grab my throttle

i d g a f

Well make sure your habitat is very cold

They help me alot about my issues with talking to girls lel

Just

Do

It

Yee /k/old gang

@Sir Harndes

You.