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2018-02-12 15:45:34 UTC

Iโ€™ll take it then

2018-02-12 15:45:42 UTC

Iโ€™m super anxious on campus

2018-02-12 15:45:47 UTC

First time being back since sober

2018-02-12 15:45:49 UTC

I take like a 3 MG melatonin if I'm real anxious

2018-02-12 15:45:58 UTC

Mine are tens

2018-02-12 15:46:03 UTC

Yeah college campuses are gay. I just finished in December 2016.

2018-02-12 15:46:04 UTC

But Iโ€™m also 260lbs.

2018-02-12 15:46:14 UTC

Yeah you should definitely be fine

2018-02-12 15:46:15 UTC

This is my last sem

2018-02-12 15:46:22 UTC

Trying to make it through and get my degree

2018-02-12 15:46:26 UTC

I mean I'm not a doctor but I have lots of experience with anxiety copes

2018-02-12 15:47:25 UTC

Melatonin is extremely mild

2018-02-12 15:48:21 UTC

I've used melatonin, cbd oil, benadryl

2018-02-12 15:48:34 UTC

For public coping

2018-02-12 15:49:37 UTC

I also used to wear a medical alert bracelet that said panic disorder so people wouldn't call a fucking ambulance if I just so happened to have a full blown panic attack in public. Thank God I haven't yet. Only one at the wheel and one at my old job. Since then only at home.

2018-02-12 15:50:10 UTC

Cos I get the hyperventilating, whole body trembling, can't talk or move, etc.

2018-02-12 15:50:52 UTC

I trust your experience

2018-02-12 15:50:56 UTC

I've been reading more lately (the past few years) about how it's a response that ties into our limbic system (lizard brain). Very interesting.

2018-02-12 15:51:10 UTC

I get that too

2018-02-12 15:51:20 UTC

Right now my hands and feet feel weird and sweaty

2018-02-12 15:51:21 UTC

I used benadryl a good bit when I was on a campus

2018-02-12 15:51:24 UTC

And Iโ€™m a little dizzy

2018-02-12 15:51:24 UTC

Phenibut helped me with anxiety

2018-02-12 15:51:31 UTC

Phenibut?

2018-02-12 15:51:34 UTC

Whatโ€™s that?

2018-02-12 15:51:47 UTC

Yeah I take Benadryl at home sometimes

2018-02-12 15:51:51 UTC

Can you find a quiet place to be alone and center yourself?

2018-02-12 15:51:51 UTC

I might try that

2018-02-12 15:51:59 UTC

Usually helps me

2018-02-12 15:52:01 UTC

Not in the middle of class, no

2018-02-12 15:52:10 UTC

Well yeah not now lol

2018-02-12 15:52:13 UTC

For me the worst part is the driving

2018-02-12 15:52:16 UTC

Yeah I usually end up in a restroom stall for that @Der Jรคger lol

2018-02-12 15:52:16 UTC

Scares me bad

2018-02-12 15:52:24 UTC

Heard that

2018-02-12 15:52:30 UTC

Being in class sucks but driving is hell

2018-02-12 15:52:33 UTC

Yeah driving is something I still haven't totally conquered. I do it, but it ain't easy.

2018-02-12 15:52:43 UTC

I literally started on Xanax so I could drive like a normal person

2018-02-12 15:52:47 UTC

yup, I rememebr locking ymself in the bathroom

2018-02-12 15:52:48 UTC

Same

2018-02-12 15:52:54 UTC

Now Iโ€™m off drugs and rebound anxiety is ruling over my life

2018-02-12 15:52:57 UTC

But the Xanax got out of control

2018-02-12 15:53:03 UTC

also had sublingual Ativan at the time

2018-02-12 15:53:06 UTC

Yeah fuck drugs

2018-02-12 15:53:06 UTC

Yeah Xanax is no way to live

2018-02-12 15:53:12 UTC

Ativan either

2018-02-12 15:53:12 UTC

No way to live

2018-02-12 15:53:15 UTC

Agreed

2018-02-12 15:53:17 UTC

yeah it sucked

2018-02-12 15:53:19 UTC

Fuck ALL benzos

2018-02-12 15:53:23 UTC

Never again

2018-02-12 15:53:26 UTC

but it did work very quickly

2018-02-12 15:53:33 UTC

Yeahs going to take time your doing great bro...it is scary tho. Remember itโ€™s literally all in your head

2018-02-12 15:53:50 UTC

Your mind just likes to play games

2018-02-12 15:53:56 UTC

Yeah I try to remind myself of that so I donโ€™t think Iโ€™m dying

2018-02-12 15:53:58 UTC

It sucks, cos I used to be super hard charger, went around the world with the navy, etc. It wasn't until two years after I separated that I had my first panic attack, or any conscious anxiety at all.

2018-02-12 15:54:05 UTC

I refer to it as my nervous breakdown

2018-02-12 15:54:08 UTC

I was 28

2018-02-12 15:54:35 UTC

Being around fellow comrades probably masked that symptom

2018-02-12 15:54:39 UTC

Just got super dizzy and anxious fuck

2018-02-12 15:54:44 UTC

My heart is going crazy

2018-02-12 15:54:47 UTC

Breath

2018-02-12 15:54:58 UTC

In thru your nose

2018-02-12 15:55:08 UTC

Slow release thru your lungs

2018-02-12 15:55:14 UTC

And out of your mouth

2018-02-12 15:55:27 UTC

I do shallow breathe when Iโ€™m concentrating

2018-02-12 15:55:27 UTC

Yeah @FashyGoy1488 ill get angry with my anxiety and be like

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/406155057705385994/412637838660730880/received_1777423985897287.jpeg

2018-02-12 15:55:31 UTC

Idk how to stop it

2018-02-12 15:55:47 UTC

Yeah I feel that @patron Saint of EATIN

2018-02-12 15:55:52 UTC

I challenge it to kill me

2018-02-12 15:55:58 UTC

And if I don't die within a few minutes

2018-02-12 15:56:02 UTC

I do the breathing thing

2018-02-12 15:56:06 UTC

And tell it to fuck off

2018-02-12 15:56:10 UTC

Of course it's still there

2018-02-12 15:56:15 UTC

But it's a decent mental exercise

2018-02-12 15:56:22 UTC

Meditation helps put you in place. Just feeling. No thinking. Just being

2018-02-12 15:56:41 UTC

Idk how to meditate

2018-02-12 15:56:44 UTC

Never been able to

2018-02-12 15:56:52 UTC

I guess it's always my approach to challenge things to death battles lmao

2018-02-12 15:56:54 UTC

Itโ€™s just an opportunity for my mind to go to war with itself

2018-02-12 15:57:08 UTC

Nah you can learn how. It takes a lot of time and practice.

2018-02-12 15:57:17 UTC

Even I eventually learned how to somewhat do it

2018-02-12 15:57:18 UTC

Idk how to learn correctly

2018-02-12 15:57:28 UTC

Iโ€™m open to it

2018-02-12 15:58:08 UTC

It helps to have someone close by who can guide you. Maybe sign up for a yoga or some other class? Just one time? You don't have to wear the stretchy pants, just gym clothes.

2018-02-12 15:58:15 UTC

Try the insight timer app

2018-02-12 15:58:25 UTC

And you can do it by yourself and learn

2018-02-12 15:58:33 UTC

Classes are good to

2018-02-12 15:58:33 UTC

Thatโ€™s a possibility

2018-02-12 15:58:41 UTC

Insight timer?

2018-02-12 15:58:47 UTC

Iโ€™ll download it

2018-02-12 15:58:48 UTC

Yes thatโ€™s the app name

2018-02-12 15:58:48 UTC

You have to wear the stretchy pants

2018-02-12 15:58:49 UTC

Canโ€™t hurt

2018-02-12 15:58:56 UTC

It's the rules

2018-02-12 15:58:57 UTC

Iโ€™m cool with stretchy pants haha

2018-02-12 15:59:04 UTC

Lol

2018-02-12 15:59:24 UTC

Sorry gotta bounce, babbles is up from morning nap. Good luck, I'll try to think of more shit I do to cope, it's just all become so subconscious nowadays.

2018-02-12 15:59:39 UTC

Later have a good day!

2018-02-12 16:03:17 UTC

Cold weather makes my shakes so bad holy shit

2018-02-12 16:03:24 UTC

Off to get something to eat

2018-02-12 16:12:43 UTC

Eating!

2018-02-12 16:14:36 UTC

Read from bottom to top. Heyo!!!

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/406155057705385994/412642659627171843/Screenshot_20180212-111238.png

2018-02-12 16:15:02 UTC

Quitting drinking is working

2018-02-12 16:16:27 UTC

Hopefully be able to taper off the clonidine

2018-02-12 16:19:43 UTC

That's around my blood pressure, and I'm 19

2018-02-12 16:19:58 UTC

Oosh which one

2018-02-12 16:20:07 UTC

125/89

2018-02-12 16:20:18 UTC

That's still borderline hypertensive

2018-02-12 16:20:28 UTC

I typically run around 76 for the diastole though

2018-02-12 16:20:30 UTC

I'm 31 and have been an alcoholic most of my adult life

2018-02-12 16:20:44 UTC

You gotta do some more PT comrade

2018-02-12 16:20:53 UTC

But 76 ain't bad for diastolic

2018-02-12 16:21:27 UTC

Yeah mine is normally around 116/76 I think

2018-02-12 16:21:35 UTC

Oh that's fine

2018-02-12 16:21:48 UTC

You're only about 10 pointa away was my point

2018-02-12 16:21:54 UTC

My detox doctor wants me shooting for 110/60,but I don't think mine has ever been that low

2018-02-12 16:22:03 UTC

Maybe once I start back to the gym regularly

2018-02-12 16:22:14 UTC

Oh yeah, true. I'm excited, for sure

2018-02-12 16:22:20 UTC

It's been so high for years.

2018-02-12 16:24:38 UTC

@CatoHostilius i was 19 when I had my oldest child and I developed pre-eclampsia, blood pressure shot up to like 150/120, hasn't been the same since

2018-02-12 16:25:17 UTC

Oof

2018-02-12 16:35:18 UTC

NICE! Great job on the BP

2018-02-12 16:40:16 UTC

Heโ€™ll Yeah

2018-02-12 16:40:20 UTC

Fuck alcohol

2018-02-12 16:40:24 UTC

Youโ€™re doing great

2018-02-12 18:04:55 UTC

Danke der Kameraden

2018-02-12 18:09:55 UTC

Bitte

2018-02-12 19:17:53 UTC

holy fukkk, just realized I have had ONLY ONE CUP OF COFFEE TODAY

2018-02-12 19:17:59 UTC

and I'm still alive

2018-02-12 19:18:54 UTC

Good

2018-02-12 20:08:33 UTC

We are all gonna make it fam

2018-02-12 21:33:16 UTC

Caffeine Free Nationalism

2018-02-12 21:33:37 UTC

I like caffeine

2018-02-12 21:37:14 UTC

Oy vey!

2018-02-12 21:37:20 UTC

Jk

2018-02-12 21:37:24 UTC

More power to ya!

2018-02-12 21:37:38 UTC

I wish I could drink caffeine and not feel like I just slammed meth

2018-02-12 21:41:46 UTC

HAIL METH

2018-02-12 21:50:23 UTC

Lol

2018-02-12 21:50:32 UTC

Read SIEGE!!!

2018-02-12 22:06:56 UTC

Somebody needs to make a AWD starter pack meme lol

2018-02-12 22:07:42 UTC

mexican tranny gf would have to be on it after the last revelation

2018-02-12 22:07:52 UTC

LOL

2018-02-12 22:19:24 UTC

What should I cook for dinner tonight?

2018-02-12 22:26:03 UTC

Any dietary restrictions?

2018-02-12 22:26:15 UTC

And how much you looking to spend?

2018-02-12 22:29:57 UTC

I can spend whatever

2018-02-12 22:30:10 UTC

I want to make a good home cooked dinner

2018-02-12 22:30:16 UTC

No diet

2018-02-12 22:30:26 UTC

But Iโ€™m trying to not be a fat ass

2018-02-12 22:32:44 UTC

Lean proteins my friend

2018-02-12 22:32:52 UTC

Fish and eggs and legumes

2018-02-12 22:34:22 UTC

My normal dinner consists of peppers, root vegetables (both raw), fish or pork, and a glass of whole milk

2018-02-12 22:35:32 UTC

Nice and simple. I try not to make it ornate with all kinds of fancy stuff. Eating is subsistence and should be treated as such in bad times as well as good

2018-02-12 22:35:56 UTC

Heโ€™ll Yeah

2018-02-12 22:36:05 UTC

I might grill some salmon with brown rice

2018-02-12 22:36:09 UTC

And veggies

2018-02-12 22:36:13 UTC

Sounds dank

2018-02-12 22:36:37 UTC

The way I look at it, by eating healthy and cheaply now, I'm preparing myself for the inevitability when I'm eating spam and bean stew most of the time

2018-02-12 22:38:18 UTC

MREs bro

2018-02-12 22:38:20 UTC

Lol

2018-02-12 22:39:19 UTC

People make fun of me because I tend to subsist on canned fish and wild fruit

2018-02-12 22:39:37 UTC

But you didn't see Jesus stuffing his face

2018-02-12 22:39:45 UTC

Bread and wine, my friend

2018-02-12 22:40:58 UTC

I have decided not to cook afterall lol

2018-02-12 22:41:07 UTC

Pho sounds good

2018-02-12 22:41:13 UTC

Iโ€™m about to eat gook food

2018-02-12 22:41:15 UTC

Fuck it

2018-02-12 22:41:35 UTC

Food is the only good thing to come from multiculturalism

2018-02-12 22:41:38 UTC

Kek

2018-02-12 22:46:09 UTC

Nothing wrong with gook food

2018-02-12 22:46:27 UTC

Our ancestors conquered the world in search of new spices and foods

2018-02-12 23:33:39 UTC

Yeah man. Spring rolls and pho

2018-02-12 23:33:47 UTC

I feel good. Just finished up.

2018-02-12 23:33:58 UTC

Gonna take my girl home then hit the weights

2018-02-12 23:34:05 UTC

Then be a shitlord on video games

2018-02-12 23:47:34 UTC

I had sushi teehee race traitors unite

2018-02-13 00:51:47 UTC

Salmon is the one true fish of our people

2018-02-13 00:51:56 UTC

honorable mentions for trout, sardines, and tuna

2018-02-13 01:03:29 UTC

What about catfish

2018-02-13 01:10:51 UTC

Iโ€™m a big fish fan. I like sushi and cooked fish

2018-02-13 01:11:03 UTC

Catfish is ok. I like it deep fried best

2018-02-13 01:11:12 UTC

Even then itโ€™s not the best

2018-02-13 01:11:26 UTC

I never go out of my way for catfish

2018-02-13 01:19:08 UTC

Cod , Haddock are great

2018-02-13 01:22:35 UTC

My top favs for cooked fish are salmon, trout, and bass.

2018-02-13 01:22:59 UTC

Top favs for raw are salmon, red snapper, yellow tail, and tuna

2018-02-13 01:23:12 UTC

Cooked tuna is good too. Also seared.

2018-02-13 01:23:22 UTC

Cod and haddock is WHITEfish

2018-02-13 01:23:35 UTC

White Power!

2018-02-13 01:24:27 UTC

Sushi is white, japs are h o n o r a r y

2018-02-13 01:26:11 UTC

Sushi is 56%

2018-02-13 01:26:44 UTC

Kek

2018-02-13 01:37:10 UTC

Haddock is great when cooked right

2018-02-13 01:51:45 UTC

You guys should try blini with sour cream and salmon

2018-02-13 02:00:52 UTC

Can I like salmon or did Jews ruin that too?

2018-02-13 02:01:50 UTC

Specifically smoked

2018-02-13 02:01:53 UTC

Salmon is good, had it at church yesterday

2018-02-13 02:02:23 UTC

It was fuckin baste tbh

2018-02-13 02:02:37 UTC

Salmon is a good fish

2018-02-13 02:02:47 UTC

Cod can go to hell

2018-02-13 02:03:40 UTC

Cod is good

2018-02-13 02:03:58 UTC

It tastes fine, but breaking it down is a pain

2018-02-13 05:26:32 UTC

DAY FIVE WITH NO ALCOHOL I'M FLYING THROUGH THE TRADWORKER MANUAL GETTING EDITING AND REWRITING AND GETTING SHIT FUCKING DONE ITS AMAZING AND TERRIFYING AND I AM A MIGHTY SHIELD MAIDEN WARRIOR AAAAHHHHHB

2018-02-13 05:26:43 UTC

tuna in scrambled eggs is god tier

2018-02-13 05:27:17 UTC

I actually laughed lol

2018-02-13 05:28:05 UTC

I may have added some MCT oil into my evening get shit done after the kids go to sleep coffee

2018-02-13 05:30:40 UTC

I stg I've gotten more done in the past few days than I have in months. I've overhauled our family clothing storage system, I've cleaned out from under and behind the couches, I've prepared the PowerPoint for Heimbachs Knoxville speech, edited the party manual, paid important landlord bills, I don't even know what else, it's just been a flurry of activity.

2018-02-13 05:31:33 UTC

These Jews aren't ready.

2018-02-13 05:31:51 UTC

Lol

2018-02-13 05:53:45 UTC

Glad to hear youโ€™re doing better and feeling motivated! Thatโ€™s exciting! Hail Victory! @patron Saint of EATIN

2018-02-13 05:57:37 UTC

Tfw no waifu to take care of my clothes

2018-02-13 06:01:43 UTC

Youโ€™re of able body

2018-02-13 06:01:54 UTC

I do my own laundry

2018-02-13 06:02:00 UTC

No shame

2018-02-13 06:02:10 UTC

I prefer to do my own laundry

2018-02-13 06:02:26 UTC

Nothing pisses me off more than my black clothes entering warm/hot water

2018-02-13 06:02:35 UTC

Itโ€™s happened before

2018-02-13 06:02:40 UTC

Not cool

2018-02-13 06:06:49 UTC

Tfw no autistic Nazi gf

2018-02-13 06:07:04 UTC

Why even live

2018-02-13 06:18:13 UTC

I'm sorry. To be fair, my husband picked up a depressed alcoholic autistic nazi gf from the internet. He put up with a year of me being basically shit. I mean I always did the basics. But I had to be led and inspired to better myself to be the best.

2018-02-13 06:18:24 UTC

That's why I was telling you not to turn tail on chubby girl

2018-02-13 06:21:05 UTC

Also
>laundering any clothing in anything other than cold water

Hot water is for towels

2018-02-13 10:26:36 UTC

Yeah, I've been talking to some depressed anxious nazi chick for a little, a bit iffy about it. Might stick it out though.

2018-02-13 10:31:11 UTC

Pretty interested in her, she's interested in me. She's got some mental health issues though, doesn't seem to want to commit.

2018-02-13 10:31:38 UTC

Pretty great otherwise though

2018-02-13 11:59:25 UTC

I had/have some mental health issues. I was completely ready and willing to commit. Could be an age thing. The younger ones are probably more interested in playing the field. Not implying that's what she's doing, just saying that younger women have more options than I did as a depressed single mom internet nazi gf lmao.

2018-02-13 12:01:11 UTC

But definitely DON'T go for an older woman. Ask my husband @parrott about that one. Definitely find someone age appropriate, your age or a few years younger (he's four years older than me)

2018-02-13 12:06:33 UTC

Sorry for the wall of text, but the important thing when looking for a woman in Weimerica (especially online) is that her defects are manageable in some way, and that she *believes*in a future for white children. That second half is more rare than you could ever wish to believe, unfortunately. Lots of larpers out there, male and female. People who just want to be edgy, or signal their intellectual superiority without ever having to pick up a book. *sigh* sorry just had to pick through a lot of bad apples before I found my husband.

2018-02-13 12:14:22 UTC

Ugh, I'm sorry, I always just go on and on about shit, my bad.

2018-02-13 12:14:52 UTC

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/406155057705385994/412944716368314369/Snapchat-543161565.jpg

2018-02-13 12:54:40 UTC

I used to always go for older women until my current gf. Sex was awesome but there was always compatibility issues

2018-02-13 14:29:57 UTC

@patron Saint of EATIN great advice...i'm terrified to see the state of women in this world...

2018-02-13 14:30:19 UTC

odds of getting a divorce is looking like 99%

2018-02-13 14:30:29 UTC

so at some point, I'll want to find a woman.

2018-02-13 14:31:12 UTC

i'll be happy with a woman who is traditional values...and is republican.

2018-02-13 14:31:20 UTC

further right would be nice, but not necessary

2018-02-13 14:43:03 UTC

The state of white men isn't too much better, most places I have lived, comrade

2018-02-13 14:43:22 UTC

In south Florida, the only white guys around were either on or recovering from heroin, didn't have jobs or drivers licenses, etc.

2018-02-13 14:43:36 UTC

I ended up financially supporting one of these creatures for a year of my life

2018-02-13 14:44:00 UTC

He had AB tattoos, but turns out he was only gay for the stay. He messaged me on Facebook last year about the hate in my heart. He is an anti-racist now

2018-02-13 14:44:02 UTC

SAD!

2018-02-13 14:46:35 UTC

Both sexes are in bad shape, men have become lazy and out of shape, women have gotten caught up in this feminist propaganda machine. Most men would rather just sit home and play video games instead of finding a good woman, most women will do something similar but instead of gaming, it's going to clubs and other degenerate hot spots. It can and will be fixed

2018-02-13 14:47:18 UTC

Men have become women and women have become men

2018-02-13 14:47:21 UTC

For the most part

2018-02-13 14:51:38 UTC

Never been to a club in my life because autism/hate people but I definitely resigned myself to my house alone with a bottle of Jameson for several years.

2018-02-13 14:52:30 UTC

Clubs are gross

2018-02-13 14:52:36 UTC

Definitely not an Aryan hangout

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