Fellas, I'm 180lbs

6'3"

Lol

Just get a weight gainer

Cato! How are you alive ???

I’m one inch taller than you and 265

5'10" 170lbs

5'7" 180lbs...maybe I need to go on the @FashyGoy1488 diet

lol

Sheeeeiiiittttt

@FashyGoy1488 we gotta hang sometime dude. You're a giant of a man

I’m down once I’m feeling better

Driving is the worst thing right now

Just gotta get to TEXAS

Oh you’re not even here lol

just gonna float on a log down the Brazos river

Gas is expensive

Bet

Haha

I'll row a boat down there and show up with some killer obliques

@FashyGoy1488 Am skinny

hang out with TWP for a while, we'll change that

Gotta eat lots of meat and veggies and lift a little bit

I still haven’t eaten

All I’ve been able to manage is a protein shake

I have to go work for a few hours too

I can’t wait for this feeling to end

try making a shake yourself with some calorically dense stuff

like peanut butter

I did one shake

But that’s all i could sotmach

*stomach

Got to work and it’s distracting me from some of the symptoms

Anyone have any good advice on making yourself eat?

I haven’t eaten anything solid all day

Considering I’ve jumped from 4mg to 2mg, I’m doing well that way, but I can’t eat for shit and am feelin real shitty and the lack of food can’t be helping matters

If anyone’s been there, let me know what works for you when you need to eat and cant

@FashyGoy1488 What the fuck?

Do you have anorexia?

No

Make a big pot of bone broth

Broth. Not a bad idea but still just liquid

It goes down easy and has a lot of important nutrients

Oh ok

So i don’t necessarily need solid food?

Liquids are a good solution if your appiteite is gone.

not the most high calorie thing, but you can add some vegetables to it

All I’ve had is water and a protein shake

I can make a soup or something

solid food is obviously better. But if you can't eat it or keep it down, liquid still gets some nutrients into you

I want to eat somethinggg

@FashyGoy1488 Not necessarily, but don't think that you can live the rest of your life on broths and protein shakes.

But I have no appetite

Well obviously not

Make nigger soup

Just while I’m hurting

It's literally soup made out of blacks

@FashyGoy1488 Do you have the flu or something?

It's a fantastic source of VitamiN K

As well as vitamin K

And of vitamin K

Vitamin KANGZ?

I’m doing a hard taper off Xanax @Dangerlurking I don’t want to depend on benzos forever

Of WHAT?

benzodiazepines

xanax

Yeah

@FashyGoy1488 THE FUCK?

You’re supposed to slow taper but I’m a viking

Not recreational my dude

Its one of the worst withdrawals out there

Recreational Xanax use is for faggots

You got some explaining to do.

No he doesn't

It really is

Get a load of this guy

I know right lol

@Hadrian I was typing that as he was responding....

A literally who telling an officer and respected member to explain himself

He doesn't need to justify himself and his medical history

Get the fuck out of here if you're gonna act like that dude

Even if it *was* recreational, so what? We all have a past that we're trying to shake off

@Fash Dragon Read above, I was typing that out as he was responding, I thought he was using the recreational kind, then I noticed he was using the medical kind, after I sent that out.

Telling an officer to explain himself to you was kinda dumb

But i forgive

Hell, I was a junkie

We all have oasts

*pasts

And nobody has demanded that I explain myself. I fought my way out of it, and that's enough

I quit drinking except special occasions this year. I was a liquor junkie. Feels good to not drink honestly. Never turning back.

I still drink and I smoke when I'm stressed

@Dangerlurking regardless dude, show respect to officers and other members generally.

Lots of our guys do

I’m not gonna knock on drinking, I’m just personally happier now

and sometimes smoke a corn cob pipe when I want to relax or larp as Cmdr. Rockwell

Nice haha

I can’t handle tobacco I hate it

I stopped smoking recently

Nice

That’s great

pipe tobacco is very different from cigarettes

*Well, I fucked this one up really bad.*
@Fash Dragon Yhea, I know, but drug use, is not a thing I tend to take lightly, especially for something as hardcore as xanax.

I broke down and had a few on Saturday because I was partying

Hey man moderation

Not bad

it happens

@Dangerlurking lol dude I don't either. I ODd on that shit back in 2016.

It’s better than other things out there

That was the worst time of my life

Everyone that quits benzos wishes they never started

@Fash Dragon Yhea, when you hear stories about stuff like that, and their long term effect on people, you tend to get a bit heavy handed in your approach to it.

There’s always a better option

Yep, I certainly do

I feel you Rex

There was a time when half my paycheck went down my throat, into my lungs or up my nose

I don’t like to see our people take the path of drugs

I don’t like it either

@FashyGoy1488 Well, what matters is that you are fixing the issue.

Indeed

I am

Benzos are like a ball and chain

I will be stronger after this

I’m just weak for now

It felt so good at first, I was so relaxed

I feel weak anyways

taking 2x .5mg per day

That’s low, not bad

I took like 11mg in a day once

In the beginning

Oh ok

After 4 years I was on 6-8mg per day

And you quit that entirely?

and sublingual Ativan for when I had panic attacks anyway

@Hadrian That's how most people get into weed, an escape away from their issues.

not week, xanax

Hadrian are you fully off benzos?

My psychiatrist prescribed it along with the rest of my cocktail

Yes, haven't touched one since August 2016

I was connecting the two, in how people get into them.

Wow!

Hadrian wow

I’m proud

I did say I'd been there

What was your process to quit? Taper also?

yeah but a long taper

Yeah I’m kind of being crazy with this jump

by the time I lost my insurance I already had like 2 month supply left

@FashyGoy1488 How are you reacting to it.... so far?

I just want a boost forward through the quitting process

So far it’s bad

I can hardly drive or work or concentrate

Still supremely sucked when I jumped down too fast

Luckily it’s my easiest and last semster

Yeah man that’s me Hadrian

I jumped fast

But I will go slow after this jump

Once I get stabilized on 2mg per day

There were multiple days on end when I didn't get out of bed except to go to the bathroom or get some water

Yep

That’s how I feel

Exactly

@FashyGoy1488 Well, at least it is tolerable for nkw.

Barely but yes.

I’ll get through this

For the quite bad addictions, mostly for people who took it recreationally, they tend to have reactions like those of heroin/meth addicts.

I had to stop taking Wellbutrin at the same time too

It’s not just recreation Rex

because taking that during benzo withdrawal causes seizures

@FashyGoy1488 I know.

If you’re prescribed it and you stop, you’ll be just as “dopesick”

Benzo withdrawal is worse

I've done meth. Benzo withdrawal was worse

Yeah it is

I did an opiate detox a long time ago

opioids was the one thing I never touched

That sucked but it wasn’t as bad as my first benzo detox

This is my second benzo detox

I'd rather have a month of coke hangovers than a week of benzo sickness

Full time college and work and TWP and my own hobbies was all too much for my anxious ass

oh god, the coke hangovers

But I didn’t know then what I know now

So I am confident I can handle this shit without drugs. In time.

Right before I quit, my job wrote me up for taking too many breaks

What they didn't know is I was taking those breaks to go do a bump in the bathroom

Yeah my job is being cool about it luckily

I’m a driver and I’ve been working inside

I can’t drive much

the xanax made me so tired with the dosages I was on

Never really got tired from it tbh

I had to do coke during the day so I could work

Shit. That sounds awful

@Hadrian Jesus.....

It was probably a combination of that and the mood stabilizers and antipsychotics I was on

I think Risperdal at the time

Bad for the heart to go up and down like that

Glad you’re doing better

Well there's a reason I quit that job. Too much stress

The stress caused every one of my symptoms, except for the ones the drugs caused

I feel that

@FashyGoy1488 And just combining medicine and alchohol can be fatal, imaging taking xanax and coke at the same time!

Exactly

Shits crazy

I'm not going to say exactly what it was, but it was a high stress job in the medical field

Like a person in an ambulance?

Again, not saying for my own protection. But it was hospital related and there were real lives at stake

Hmm, okay.

No offense brother, I just don't know you and this room isn't secure

Yhea, it is understandable.

Managed to eat half an apple

Now I won’t feel bad about trying to sleep

Thanks for being there for me goys

Good!

Any time

My 6 pack is turning to a keg... age is catching up with me. I need to start doing more ab workouts

Ivr become a fat fuck

And it stops today

Yeah! Right after these cheese coneys!

Lol

Like at cville i was in decebt shape and i gotta get back to that so i can be in fighting shape

Proud boys got stabbed in my town

By antia

Antifa* so that was like a reality check

Where was this, and when?

How bad was he stabbed?

http://wric.com/2018/01/20/two-men-stabbed-overnight-in-richmonds-shockoe-bottom/

They are ok

I sorta know them

Damn

Did they get jumped, or did they sneak stab em?

From the information i received

They went to a concert

And like 10 antis jumped them

Damn...

They got two back tho

That's good

The pbs in this state are woke on jq ajd all that but scared of natsocs

Bcuz muh ww2 propoganda

Some pbs seem like they can be converted.

Pbs?

Proud Boys

Oh lol

Freaking concerts are dangerous places...our goys need to roll in deep into venues, anymore.

A HSN guy had his throat slit by some nog, at a show in ATL, a few years ago.

I've almost gotten killed at a couple shows (once boot partied by a bunch of commies in steel toes and jumped by a bunch of commies and beaten with a hammer at another show)

One of our TWP TN goys got stabbed 12 times at a show a few years ago.

I think most of the guys I know had their worst encounters at concerts.

Ive never been a big concertgoer

I love em...find a lot of good recruits at em, I just tend to go to a lot of punk shows, where I get into shit...oops

Lol

lmao I got punched at a concert in the mosh pit years ago

Either just happened to get punched or someone was a bit butthurt on my SS hoody

Probably the latter

lol i thought i was the only one who got punched at a concert

took brass knuckes straight across the bridge of my nose

Damn nugga